April 6 (Wed.) - A revelation. The dream must be fulfilled.
Today I woke up around 9 from a weird dream. One part of it was that midgets like those ones from Lord of the Rings or something with ugly face and long nose fighting humans and such. It felt like a medieval setting and I’m caught in the middle. Harry Potter was there too trying to tell off this one ugly midget. Part of it also was being with some kind of special kids or just a group. One of them was autistic. Then he told me he was waiting for his mom. To make it short, his mom came and she was pretty dang hot, wearing that skirt. But I don’t seem to believe that’s his mom. She told me to take her hand and walk with me going to the car and I did. She kinda looked half Asian and half white. And somehow we ended up kissing. O_O And part of the dream from the first part was that humans were Christians and they didn’t fight. They were all in some kind of field and a space between them. Idk. So I got off my bed around 9:06 cause I didn’t really wanna get up but I had to and I ate breakfast and left house around 9:53 and I figured out the ending to the movie Source Code. The end part was an alternate reality. Then at the stop sign, there were just crazy cars backing and such haha. The morning was so beautiful, just felt like Cali and the Philippines and it’s a little cold and I love it. I got to school and tried to find a parking spot. So I got in the road again and I looked at this pretty white girl wearing short sport shorts and I was just like ohhh pretty. Then she crossed the street and I was just like oh shoot I’m gonna follow her cause I needed parking. Turned out she got a really good parking just 2 cars away from the road. I was just like lucky I don’t have to walk so far this time. Thanks pretty white girl driving a blue van. :D So I got to history and Coto is back and asked me if I took notes but he asked if Mariel was there on Friday and I said yeah so he’ll just get the notes from her. Schiessl also talked about extra credits and that Richard White talk on April 18 at 7. Went to English and we just read 3 stories and that graphical literature thing about a man and relationship with kids. Then I went to psych and we just started on a new chapter and took notes. I got home around 1:35 and ate lunch. I had pancit canton and mom’s egg rolls for lunch with is not so bad but it gives me super bad burps. So I tried to read part of the book for history about Cold War cause I wanna get over more things before I leave house. I left my house around 2:25 to go to Cy Falls to dance. I got there around 2:35 and me, David and Johnny all came the same time. At first, we thought no one’s gonna be there but slowly, more people came. Nick brought his umm animal costumes again haha. Meghan didn’t come to see me this time and it depresses me somehow but I thought it’ll be better for me. I got tired so quickly and I tried to do windmills cause Bach said I gotta get them back and cleaner. So I tried doing that but then my right shoulder is like hurting terribly. It feels like it’s gonna pop out and it’s excruciating in pain. I just kinda stopped afterwards then I looked or felt so worried and tried too look from far away from the Skydancers practice. I was contemplating whether to talk to her or not. Sito then asked me how I am. I told him I was okay and he asked me did I talk to Him about it. I told him yeah and I did few weeks ago and I actually talked to Him always about this. I just don’t realize it. We talked and talked and we just thanked God for His greatness and love and how He gives and take and such. It made me smile. Sito told me whenever he thinks of smile, he thinks about God. Such a beautiful vision. It made me happy and God really gives me people who will make me happy. I thank Him for everything. After our talk, we just shook hands and I was just delighted. I was kinda hyped but my shoulder won’t let me. So I just sat there and I left around 4:27 and drove off before everyone else. I kept thinking about Meghan. Then, what felt like an answer came to me. I told myself that I should just do what I usually do cause two things applied to me. Psychologist said that being happy is giving things to other people. It makes us happy. I realized it makes me happy to make her happy. So I told myself to just continue it. I think it does and will fulfill my dream 2 nights about about me and Meghan happy in my dream. I like that idea. She doesn’t have to like me. But I need to keep and watch out before I go too far and get jealous of other people/guys/things. But I shouldn’t be. Love doesn’t envy. I shouldn’t be jealous. Just make her happy. Today just felt like a resolution and revelation to me. It feels amazing. It feels great. The talk with Sito just opened my eyes again. So I got home and took a shower to get ready to go to Hearthstone park cause me and Johnson are gonna do a photoshoot with Tri Nguyen. I got there around 5:30 and just waited for them to come and they came at 6. We took some pics but we were really goaling for the sunset so when the sunset came, we took a lot of pics and they were amazing. I mean AMAZINGG. It was just beautiful hahaha. We all had a good time and session and we ended it when the sun was setting down completely. We all left and said good byes then I just went home straight happy. Happy from the photoshoot and happy from the talk. I got home around 7:50 and started editing some pics from the photoshoot. After that I just ate dinner slowly till like 11 cause I was lazy to finish all of it. I tried to add more space to my partitioned harddrive for my pics and I'm too stupid to realize that it's being used and I opened Lightroom and I ccidentally set the catalog to default. I'm hoping nothing is erased. Cause I'll be mad as eff. So I learned a lot today: from Sito, to Johnson, to Erica and Crystal being cousins. Interesting good day.