13th May 2012
Today I woke up at 8:08 when my mom came to my room asking me again if I'm going to church. Every dang week. Well I told her yeah. I went back to sleep and woke up around 9 something. I stayed in bed and did my social network wake up. I had a weird dream where Sheena John was a muslim, and I was part of building some kind tower for ships that is connected from land through sound and light. I don't really wanna talk about the dream since it's weird. I got up by 9:44 and took a shower to get ready for the day. I ate cereals and waited for my mom to get the laundries finished and actually told her happy mother's day but she didn't hear. Oh well. Lol. We headed out to leave by 10:38 and got to IBCH by 10:46. It actually felt nice outside like it was spring. There was a nice cool breeze and there's no humidity. It was just perfect. The sun was just rising and all. I got there and praise and worship already started. Then went through the sermon about mother's day, etc etc. and it was just weird for me. Finished sermon, and church and just talked to Alfonse and Darhiel about school. I told them I'm just so unsure about school. Everyone's talking about jobs and school and summer school, it's just crazy. I had getting old and being so responsible about the future and everything you have to do. I wish it's just all planned out for you. Me and my mom left the church and headed out to Carl's to go eat. Mom argued that restaurants would be all packed. Carl's was actually pretty empty, and we were the only one eating there. The workers there were just being nice and asking us if we needed something. Not really. I just strike a question to my mom who's left handed in the family and who's fat. She said it's only my dad but my dad is both. He writes with right and uses things with left. I don't know for sure. Just like me maybe. Who knows. There wasn't really much to do, and she told me that Jianni is going to have a date with her cause Ming gave the kid 30 dollars to go out and eat somewhere. She also told me about going to the Miculob's house tonight at 6 for a pool party. I kept that in mind. We left by 12:43 and got home. I was talking to Gillian and was just ready to go to her house already, but then she told me to go by around 3 or 4, so I had nothing else to do during those times. I thought about working out so I read about the day 4 of Kris Gethin's workout plan since day 3 is just buying food and supplements. I got to bed instead thinking I should just nap for 2 hours. Turns out I got way hyper because of the sweet tea I had. Adding jazz music that makes you wanna dance made it worse for me and I was just extremely hyper. I couldn't sleep. It was already 3 and I just calmed down and eventually napped. I took a short 30 min nap and got up and took a shower. I was trolling Gillian and told her that I'm not going, since when I told her yeah, I'm going there. And she told me where? and that's when I was just like I'M NOT GOING ANYMORE and staying home. Of course that was a lie. I eventually left by 4:20 and went to her house by 4:27. I told her I wasn't coming and I surprised her and told her I was outside already. I went in and we started off with greeting her relatives. Her uncle from her dad's said said hi and took a picture of me. LOL he's funny. I seriously thought it was her grandpa but I just now had a confirmation (12:25 am) that it wasn't her grandpa. We went upstairs and started off watching Legend of Korra episode 6(?). It was when Amon attacked the pro bending arena. Then we played Wii Super Smash Bros for the rest of the time. I think I found a new character I can play with - either Ike or Marth. LOL. But then I mean I only had like 3 or so wins this time. Cause most of the time I fall into my death. HAHA. What a loser seriously. I thought of leaving by 6:30 but I ended up leaving an hour after. We did eat her cookies and a piece of calamari. My eyes were teary cause of playing games and having my glasses on. Part of our game time was with her cousin. She only played with us for few games but then she had to leave, and I told her nice meeting her afterwards. We played more and I was just getting beat. LOL. I suck at the game okay. Just cause I kill my ownself. It doesn't feel so long of a stay today because I planned on going to the Miculob's. I finally told her I had to go and I was slowly going down because me and her got poke fights. I got her back though when I gave her a hug before leaving. I had fun. It's fun smiling and laughing for once again. I left by 7:38 and called my mom on the way home if she's still there. She told me the youth were there and I told her I'm still going. The atmosphere outside was so nice. It was so beautiful and perfect. The sunset was just so amazing and warm. The skies were clear and the clouds blend in. I could stare at the sunset forever. I got home by 7:45 and got some shorts for swimming. That's what I pretty much get and left my house by 7:48. I got to their house by 8:01 and there were so many cars. Luckily for me, there was someone who left so I had a spot to park. I was greeted by Farren, and then Emerson who said there's still a place for me in Houston. Well, I guess so. Everyone's just so fun and I went outside to get some food. They were just chatting and Nicole eventually noticed my tattoo. I feel like everyone hasn't seen it so I showed it, and as typical John he made the funs and laughs out of it, saying it might had been Osama or Jihad or something haha. We went upstairs to his room where he's actually building a studio. He's got the computer, beat maker, mic and everything now. It's pretty nice. I envy that. I wanna make something like that one day, but it will cost me. I don't mind. I'm still on my growing stage. We just tried to make some beats live, Emerson rapping and all. Then we all went downstairs planning to go swim. They went swimming later on but I got caught up with Nicole-Alfonse-Angelo conversation about just random things like alcohol and working out. Angelo's goal is 130 and I thought that was too skinny. Alfonse just wanted to get bigger. Later on everyone just got out of the pool and I didn't go even though I changed. Eric didn't either since he joined the convo. He recommended eating spaghetti and some strawberry something from Smoothie King haha. I also learned that high metabolism people are lactose intolerant. Well it makes sense now. We just had chat with working out, things, etc, school. The Clementes eventually wanted to leave, and so I just left with them. My mom left way long before and I left by 9:49 and got home by 10:01. On the way home, Gillian had that turn over mood again because she asked about why I feel sad when I'm in Cali. I just said some stuff so I guess she assumed I don't wanna share my feelings. But then I let her know why later on so she won't feel so out of my life. Ugh. Well the girl just care too much or worry too much. It's good but sometimes it's bad. But I mean she knows the boundaries but she doesn't have to feel so down about it. I got home and just chilled. I texted Maddie back after two hours. She was watching a chick flick movie earlier and she was with her "bro". I just now responded and tried to make a conversation. She sounds so dead. I hate it. It's cause she hasn't taken her depression medication pills. I just realized she takes so many pills and everything. It's just not normal. So much for working in a pharmacy. And the fact she used to cut herself too. Ugh. No. I told her I was suicidal and tried to cheer her up by saying be memorable to me and that she made my night because she smiled. Well it did anyways. I was on the edge of singing to her but then she didn't respond when I was about to so I just said goodnight and she finally said goodnight and responded. I told her try to convince me but she didn't even try. She was talking to her bro so oh well. She tried calling me afterwards to say goodnight but I didn't respond back and she texted afterwards telling her motives. I did say goodnight sweet dreams back on the earlier text but oh well. On the other hand, Gillian said that she wouldn't fall asleep on me but then I just slowed down my response time by 3 minutes and she fell asleep. I won haha. Also, during or before all these, Chamrong randomly just talke to me, I told him about my problem regarding the girls. It seems like it's a rare occurrence for a guy to have two girls since it's usually two guys on a girl. Well, my situation just sucks, but I told him my goals and wanting to see the motives of the girls first. He understood and we went on another topic regarding of his graduation of me going to Cali tomorrow. Well, by the end of this day, I started writing about it and started on trying to gather all the pictures for my 365project as well. I tried signing up for my classes earlier but I can't and it kept on giving me errors. The highlight of the midnight is killing 3 damn flies on my room and finding a torrent file of Fight Club for iPad for me to watch tomorrow. There's one more fly though, or more....I wanna just kill all of them. Well, I asked Vy earlier on the day if she remembers my 2 girl problems all the time, and tonight she actually responded to me and we had a long talk about life. I told her my problems and she actually knows both about Gillian and Maddie. She saw my perspective and I somehow asked how do girls even like me. She explained how I do care, how I am very relatable, and always there to listen, etc etc. At least that's in her perspective back when she liked me, according to her. She also noticed I've matured much more since highschool not throwing myself to girls and ruining myself. Things changed. There's so much we talked about and it became late so we just thought it'll be nice if we hang out if we both get back next week and just get some coffee and catch up. It was 4 there already and she gotta wake up earlier and so she went to sleep. I went ahead and downloaded more movies, signed up for classes, sign in for our flight tomorrow, and did the necessary things but packed. I showered before getting to bed and my legs were just killing me. I finally got to bed by 4:05 and tried to sleep. I was pretty exhausted already.