I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see
The perfect sky is torn
- "Torn" performed by Natalie Imbruglia
Everyday has its challenges. I have waves of grief wash over me when I least expect it. I try not to fight them but just let them flow right through. When I keep them in I feel like I might explode and I don't want to break anything.
The good news is that my wife is feeling better and is hoping to be released from the hospital tomorrow. She was able to visit baby Chloe twice today.
so glad that Lili is getting better and having time to spend with Chloe. I am sure that will help both of them. And remember, it is okay to let the grief flow and it helps start the healing process when you are ready for it.
My sense is that it keeps going like this for a time, but you find strength in bright moments and in each other. Let yourself feel the sad stuff and be in it together - but know that there is a celebration in your little girl who will thrive off your strength, hope, and love.
Never quite know the right thing to say in these situations. We're all thinking of you and hopefully it will seem better as each day progresses. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
What you are feeling is so normal and it's okay--you are right to let it flow through you. I love that you are using your photos to express these feelings. We all feel your joy and sadness Chris.
Chris, you are handling this as well as anyone could ever expect - and having an outlet is so important. . .I'm so glad to hear that Lili is doing well and that she had her visits with Chloe today. Bless you all!
Grief is a very individual thing and can be expressed in many different ways. Embrace it Chris as it will definitely help with the healing process. Thinking of you all.
What an amazing shot definitely showing the emotion of what you are going through right now. My thoughts and prayers are with you and what a blessing you wife is doing better and can visit Chloe!
You are expressing your grief so graphically here. Am happy to here that Lili and Chloe are both doing well. I waited all day to see your post and get the update. Continued prayers.
The sense of grief and helplessness comes over in this shot. You need to grieve though as you've lost someone special but you still have 2 very special people with you and better times are around the corner.
I wish I knew what to say, but as others have said here the 365 community is thinking of you and mourning with you and is also filled with joy that Lili is feeling better and able to spend time with Chloe
hang in there chris. i'm glad that your wife is doing so well. chloe is a fighter and will certainly fight in honor of and in memory of her brother. i'm sorry you are going through such a rough time right now. stay strong buddy!
You seem to be finding an outlet for your emotions in your photography and the songs that choose to exprress your feelings. There will be extremes highs and extreme lows - and you know that everyone who follows you is wishing you strength to make it through these times. I know that I wait for your poosts each day, hoping there will be good news. Today there was - Lili's coming home! Please take care of yourself, too. Prayers to you, Lili and Chloe!
This is so intense...what you are going through is so intense...I am thinking about you...and really have never had this physical reaction from a series of photos before. Sending you all lots of love and strength....xoxox
It's impossible to look at your photos and not feel some of what you are feeling. And you are coping your feelings in a very health way. Now the social worker in me comes out--the hospital should have a grief counselor on staff who should spend time with you and Lili. Someone you can vent to in a REALLY BIG way. They often have skills that will get you through this traumatic first part of your loss. My heart is with you both.
I am so heartbroken for you. My heart is just so pained for you. I am asking God to heal you and your wife. And I have sent your story to my prayer group, I hope you don't mind. You will have at least 20 of us sending up prayers for you tonight. Rest in God and know His arms are around you.
Very moving photo and quote. SO sorry to hear your bad news I'm glad your wife is recovering though and able to bond with your daughter, my thoughts have been and are with you and yours
My heart goes out to you and your family. I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm glad to hear that your wife is improving and that baby Chloe is putting up a good fight. *hugs*
This photo is so raw and such a perfect and artful depiction of what you are going through. Of course you are grieving your lost son, even as you hope for your sweet little Chloe. I'm so glad your wife will be coming home soon. You need to lean on each other now. My whole family is now praying for you and your family.
Torn is a perfect way to really describe your emotions. I have friends who have endured the same, so have been so close to this way too many times than I'd care to have been (by that I mean, it just sucks that people have to endure this)... It's good to hear Lili is doing better and I hope that Chloe can help you heal from the pain of losing Julian. The fact that you're still breathing and standing is testament to your strength, which is greater than you probably believe it to be right now.
@bdb3471 exactly what you said, is just perfect :)
Chris, I don't know you and can't imagine the pain you are going through. I am praying for you and your family! I am so glad your wife is better and can spend sometime with Chloe. I think you are a very brave kind soul.
Of all of your photos, this is the one that made tears instantly leap out of my eyes. I hope the surgery goes well tomorrow and that the roller coaster starts to wind down for your family soon.
Oh Chris. I am sorry for all you are going through. You have amazing strength - I hope you know that - and I have every faith that little Chloe has already inherited this from you.
posted May 8th, 2012
Leave a Comment
Sign up for a free account or Sign in to post a comment.
My thoughts are with you and and your family.
@bdb3471 exactly what you said, is just perfect :)