I have started writing the letter to my father that will never be sent, as directed by my counsellor. I wrote a few lines yesterday but it all flew out today. Got back to work from my lunchbreak and felt completely deflated, but I guess that is part of the process. I'll burn this letter on his birthday, Friday the 13th January.
@faeriequeen Aaaaw, thank you so much. I've got used to hiding my feelings to please everyone else, but it is high time I put a lot of demons to rest. It is good to get everything out onto paper. Thank you for the good luck, I'm hoping I can make it a pic :)
@emmaroobers Well, I'm pleased for you that you're finding your way through. :-) I was going to suggest making a pic event of it... how positive is that!? :-)
Aww man. I don't even know what to say... :( when I think I just sat at the table this evening to have tea with my Dad. I don't realise I'm lucky like that. Never the less you portrayed this well in the pic
Wonderful that you are working on yourself to achieve your own happiness. You seem to me to be a strong lady and you deserve every joy and happiness in life.
@azza_l Thank you Aaron. I do envy normal families but in some ways what I've been through enables me to see life differently. I do have a wonderful step dad though :)
Photo's eh? They can make you smile, laugh, angry, shocked but this one made me cry a little. No matter what has happened in the past, or what happens in the future know you are beautiful and pretty special.
@jasehoad Oh Jase, I'm sorry for making you cry. Perhaps I should warn you next time I do something like this. I didn't mean to upset you :( Thank you for your kind words though, I wish I'd come to 365 so much sooner, it could have saved me so much heartache. I can be me, not the me I'm expected to be.
@emmaroobers hey don't be silly about apologising, its good to feel something sometimes :) But at least you have started to become the person you always were, these things take as long as they take
Aww..good on you for doing the work!! What a different world this would be if EVERYONE had the guts to explore their baggage!
I wrote a letter to my father all angry and stuff and the next day, I found out he had a heart attack about the time I was writing the letter. Spooky....of course I have actually SENT those letters on occasion, and thats always fun! ;-)
Oh PS: I do like this pic! I think we can all relate to the fragments of questions that can be made out and your writing is all boxy and neat and stuff! Cute!
@tabbycat Oh my goodness, that is really spooky! You are brave to send the letters, but this one is definitely not going anywhere, he's been let back in my life before and it's just a question of time before he hurts me again. I'm strong enough without him x
@emmaroobers sounds good has he not bothered in your life sorry if I have asked something that will make you upset I understand if you don't want to talk about it xx
@dancinggirl96 I don't mind you asking at all. He has been in and out of my life but is very firmly out of it now. I just get upset sometimes when something reminds me of it all or when I get stressed out. I'm ok though, promise!
@dancinggirl96 I'm sorry to hear that Lucia. At the end of the day if people in your life don't deserve to be in your life (family or not) then they should stay out of it. Your happiness is the most important thing. We only get one shot at life after all.
Good Luck , the image is striking
I wrote a letter to my father all angry and stuff and the next day, I found out he had a heart attack about the time I was writing the letter. Spooky....of course I have actually SENT those letters on occasion, and thats always fun! ;-)