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19th August 2012
Confronting the Past  by espyetta

Confronting the Past

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This is my first pic on 365 that I took with my new I phone 4 (with that cool Siri assistant!), edited it on the I phone (Snapseed), and emailed it from the phone to the site. And it worked! I tried that with my IPAD a while back and it never showed up.

I am psyched about my new I phone as it may help me keep up with the project better. Paradigms may shift.. many days, I may shoot a snapshot, edit it if needed on the phone, and just send it to the site...when I get home, I can add the journal comment and be finished!

On a sad note, today I cleaned and organized our upstairs room we are now using for storage and off season clothes. I am not quite finished, but it has several hanging racks with the zippered shell around them, my old antiqued green chest of drawers from my bedroom as a kid (Mom painted and antiqued it for me), and I bought and put together one of those BIG plastic shelves from Home Depot to put the boxes of gift bags, tissue papers for gifts, the giant packs of T P and paper towels we bring home from Sam's etc...we will start storing our luggage up there too. Oh, and all the shoes I may never wear again due to my foot/ leg problems. I don't want to give them away and give up on my legs/feet just yet, but they are hogging up my closet to the point I cannot function. So I need to face the fact that I am not wearing them.

I got a tremendous amount done this weekend as we did not go to the lake. I did LOADS of laundry, worked that upstairs room (so therefore, my closet downstairs), went to see Dan's mom (he put up bars by her shower and things like that and I showed her photos on my IPAD of my brother and SIL's baby shower that she had so graciously helped make some food for), shopped and got new phones (he got the Samsung Galaxy since it is bigger), and then we were so tired, that we ran to Mexican really fast to eat so we would not have to grocery shop and then cook.

Today, I was supposed to get the car washed and an oil change. Did not get to that. But we went to breakfast (unusual for us, but he has been gone on business so it is fun to visit), then went to shop for staple items, etc.. at Sam's Club, then School box and Office Max (School stuff for me), and then home. He went to do more for his mom to make her house safer since she had taken that bad fall a while back. I went to the grocery store to get food, cleaned the refrigerator, then put all the food away. Afterwards, worked on the upstairs room putting that big shelf together. I still need to put together the last hanging rack thing for Dan's off season clothes.

Whew!

And so much I did NOT get to. Sometimes, when I know it cannot all get finished, I do nothing. But this weekend, I did get some work done!

Sadly, this is the first moment to sit down to Proj365 in ages. Bah!

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend in some way...whether it was like mine (productive), or relaxing, or something good! Have a wonderful Monday tomorrow!
Comments
Your title and the content almost make it look like you have issues with your Mother? Say it isn't so! Congrats on getting things done. I am SO disorganized, I admire people who get things done!
posted August 19th, 2012  
Peace, prayers and health...you had a productive day...look forward to the future, one moment at a time. Thanks for sharing your day
posted August 19th, 2012  
What a whirlwind you've been. I got nothing except picture taking done today. Now I'll go read a book. Ho hum!
posted August 19th, 2012  
sounds as if you've still achieved an amazing amount - well done for all that work
posted August 19th, 2012  
@sabanford Sounds like my kind of FUN, Shirley!
posted August 19th, 2012  
@m9f9l "It isn't so." :0) No more than any mom and grown, married daughter may have some issues...No, the title means that I have let some "stuff" sit around and now that I am going through it, boom! There is something from mom...and it just throws me for a loop. I am so busy, that often, I can avoid being sad about mom being gone, about how sad end of life stories can be, etc.. I just miss her terribly. and, like all people I am sure, I DO wish I had done the proverbial "more" and appreciated her more/told her more. But no issues beyond that. Just "bumping into alot of memories" today....
posted August 19th, 2012  
Ah. I understand. Two days ago my Dad would have been 102 years old if he were still around. It's been 20 years but I still miss him.
posted August 19th, 2012  
@m9f9l I know...it is just going to get worse, not better. :0( Boo hoo
posted August 19th, 2012  
Sounds like a manic weekend. I often think that we will never get it all done (chores that is). Life likes to keep us busy.
posted August 19th, 2012  
@espyetta Well, it's been 28 years since my Mom died, and it's a bit of a curve... it gets worse and then it kind of dwindles into a peace of sorts. I suppose it's different for me though, because there were a LOT of issues with my Mom and I was 20 when she died.
posted August 19th, 2012  
@m9f9l Oh, I am sorry. And while some issues crop up with an "older daughter that is married" (like me) I know it has to be hard to lose your mom when you are in your early 20s...those are years of thinking of ones self, looking to get away from your parents as fast as you can, etc.. and parents can pull and tug to pull you back in, and then fights ensue. So to lose your mom then...that is tough. I have a friend who lost her mom when we were both in early 20s...just hard!
posted August 19th, 2012  
There was quite a bit of guilt too, because of all the times I'd fantasized about her dying...
posted August 19th, 2012  
@m9f9l :0( Yes, guilt. We all have it. We all think back to when we said something mean, or did not do enough, or whatever..I am sorry you have to deal with that..but I am sure it is better now..after all these years.
posted August 19th, 2012  
Yup, like I said... it settles into a kind of peace. Hopefully, it will do so for one of my brothers sometime too.... He hasn't seen her in 33 years, but he can't say her name or "Mom". Just refers to her as "she" or "that woman".
posted August 19th, 2012  
I got a lot done yesterday but not today ... lazy day today. glad you got your phone. i'm holding out for the 5, hopefully soon, from what we hear.
posted August 19th, 2012  
I've been wondering whether to go down the i-phone route. Eldest and middle son both have one and I'm really rather impressed with the camera on it. Youngest son has a Samsung Galaxy but I have no idea what the camera's like on it (he never seems to have it switched on when I try to call him!) xx
posted August 19th, 2012  
Congrats on your new phone! You will definitely have lots of fun with it :)
posted August 19th, 2012  
Cool
posted August 20th, 2012  
I so want an iPhone. Sadly, it's not in the budget for awhile longer. Sigh.
posted August 20th, 2012  
I hope that you enjoy that new iPhone!! I've seen some wonderful photos on them ... have fun with it. You'll do GREAT! However, MB. Now I feel like I should be cleaning closets, drawers, going through my house ... in other words, I feel lazy and guilty!! LOL It'll happen one of these days. I'm just waiting for cooler weather ....yeah, right. Have a great week. You've earned it. :)
posted August 20th, 2012  
@karenann Oh, don't let me influence you in that unhealthy way, Karenann! haha Have fun! live it up! Worry about organization some other month/year! Haha
posted August 20th, 2012  
@webfoot Yeah...I got the cheapest one (smallest memory) but they are a pretty penny.
posted August 20th, 2012  
@psychographer I'll have to try hubby's galaxy's camera...then report back. There was a thread a while back on here where people were showing their cell phone pics..I Phone seemed to be the best. I like the photo editing apps that I already had on IPAD too...and ease of use...and Siri..that "assistant you talk to" is amazing.
posted August 20th, 2012  
@sunnygreenwood I guess the I phone 5 will just drive your car and go to work and work for you. haha! Seriously, what will be the difference, do you think?
posted August 20th, 2012  
when i retired 3 years ago, I couldn't get rid of my blackberry fast enough. it's only just recently that i've even considered getting a cell phone again, so i just decided that after all this time, when I rejoin the 21st century, i'll get the latest gaget ... ;-)
posted August 20th, 2012  
I enjoy using mine to snap a quick picture -- good if you're trying to capture strangers.
posted August 20th, 2012  
@sunnygreenwood Good for you! Yeah, last time, I wanted an I phone, but went the cheaper route and got the blackberry...there was this deal on them that made them $50 each..one for hubby and me. but this time, I was not going to be talked out of an I phone by that Galaxy. It is cool, but i knew what I wanted. The Galaxy is cool in that when you are typing, it vibrates a little bit, letting you know you are actually hitting keys...strangely reassuring. But with Siri, I am going to "talk alot of my texts" But hubby has that too..just not something called Siri...
posted August 20th, 2012  
It sounds as though you had a weekend like mine! I went on a rampage, cleaning out closets and drawers - and I came across so many old photos - my husband's death certificate - letter and cards he had sent me. For me, it's been a longer time - almost 23 yrs. since he died, so I was able to read the cards and letters and smile. Time does heal.
posted August 20th, 2012  
@sparkleplenty1 Hi Joyce! I chuckled out loud when I read your phrase "I went on a rampage!" haha That is good to know that time ends up helping the pain of missing a loved one. I guess it will...because you just get more used to running into things, and your brain won't any more take a shock from it...it will be set to the new normal....it is hard to lose a mom! They think you hung the moon like no one else on this planet ever will. I am sorry you have been without your husband for so long... :0(
posted August 20th, 2012  
Sorry about the sadness but try to turn those times of being shocked and saddened into times to reminisce about the good times - the dismal swamp, trips to Kentucky,time with Erin and Davis and your mom. I was so sad to see you write 'it will only get worse'. At least in my experience, that's not the case. It was hard in the beginning which is where you are, but time does heal. No more pain just good memories and peace. Love ya!
posted August 20th, 2012  
@tara11 Yeah, a few people were saying that it does get better...but it seems to get worse first, after the initial first year where you are sort of in shock and don't really believe it. Then, it gets tough for a few years..the weight of missing the person piles on. But then, "they say" it gets better....you can smile more and feel more at peace. So that is good. I think that will be the case.
posted August 20th, 2012  
Sounds like you had a very busy, very productive, but a little sad day. So many times memories do seem to just pop up in the most unexpected places. Hope the rest of your week is just as productive, but not nearly as sad.
posted August 20th, 2012  
This is a beautiful photo.........I hope that somehow it will bring you a small amount of the love and comfort that you miss, I'm not sure it ever gets better just more maneageable - for a better word, I can imagine how a busy life helps to dilute the pain. Sounds like a busy weekend, happy that you have a new phone......wishing you peace each day.
posted August 20th, 2012  
Bless your heart MaryBeth.... you have achieved so much this weekend... physically and emotionally. I know how hard it is so deal with precious items given by a much loved one that has passed. ... such treasured memories...... sending you much love and ((hugs)) ♥♥
posted August 20th, 2012  
You've done so much work! I see this shot holds significant memories and meaning for you. It's well composed, and looks beautiful in B&W. Keeping busy is not a bad thing unless you overdo it, so remember to take the time to relax too.
posted August 20th, 2012  
I got a new phone recently too - the HTC One X and I love it! It sounds like you had a busy weekend! I did intend to do a lot, but I ended up watching the cricket instead!
posted August 20th, 2012  
i'm tired now after reading all that you had done. i think i need a nap now. i'm really this close to getting an iPhone. i don't use my cellphone much, i'm on prepaid. partner is now watching it so that my money don't get forfeited. but i would like to have an iPhone because there's too many characters on the subway train that i can photograph but of course i can't use the regular camera. but iPhone, hah, that's a different story. i hate talking on the phone, whenever it rings i just ignore it. :-) your mom has nice handwriting, as are most of our elders. after us, it will just be generations of people who writes like chicken scratches.
posted August 21st, 2012  
@summerfield Yeah, someone else was saying how good an I phone is for sneaky shots! I need to remember that. I LOVE mine! Mom's handwriting was pretty! Mine is just like you said....chicken scratch!
posted August 21st, 2012  
this is lovely... i have to say, i LOVE my iphone, and snapseed is wonderful... but i struggle in using the iphone to stay caught up on 365... i do check it a ot throughout the day, but commenting and such - not so much... hopefully you'll fare better than i!
posted August 21st, 2012  
Wow! You have really been busy. I love this phone shot. The edit is super
posted August 21st, 2012  
I'm just tired reading all this. Now, I'll have to post a filler. lol
posted August 25th, 2012  
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