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I cant believe that its 2015... the last two years have been a really hard blur, but we start this year with Dave moving out of the rehab care home to live with us. He has worked so hard to overcome the problems left after brain surgery..as we all have, but as this is the beginning of the future I intend to fall back onto photography to record and release..

Well I plan to try again for a second year. Below was my reason for starting last year.. I am still grieving for John and now my brother D has a brain tumor so Im not sure if I will be able to keep up again... but here goes.. thank you all for your patience, support and beautiful images.
D's words for 2013 Wishing everyone who knows me a fantastic New Year, I know my year is going to be fantastic, cos I’m gonna make it that way. And remember.........that you are a wonderful person, that you are a once-in-all-history event, that it’s more than a right, it’s your duty, to be who you are, that life is not a problem to solve, but a gift to cherish, and you'll be able to stay one up on what used to get you down. Xxxxx

2012...

I am trying to cope after a difficult time. My youngest brother John(39) was diagnosed with advanced kidney cancer in August 2011, after 3 of the cruellest and most difficult months, he lost his battle with this awful demon. I am really missing him, as are all of the family, and we are all raw and in shock. Not only was he my amazing brother, my fun, my protector, he was also my partner at work (property development)

I had hoped that the New Year (2012)would enable me to feel positive, as I know that my fantastic brother would have wanted us all to try and be strong. and learn to make the most of everyday. This year will be about learning how to do that, and this seems a good way of recording the journey

John got a lot of pleasure from the community at retrorides, I already feel that this community will give me that pleasure, hope and help focus on some positives.

I am also fundraising at www.justgiving.com/johncottingham to raise awareness that kidney cancer is a silent killer of young people with their lives ahead of them...