I'm drowning... and you're standing three feet away screaming "learn how to swim" -c.j.
This is how services feel at the moment. And just everything really. Everything feels really hopeless and it took me forever (and much persuasion from Kate) to ring to try and get a GP appt tomorrow (long story short the surgery changed their appt system so my GP couldn't book me in last week and told me to ring today), and I couldn't get one so they said to try again tomorrow but I don't really see the point because it feels like I'm wasting their time.
I actually felt okay this morning and managed to go and see L but since then my mood seems to have gone into freefall and I'm now curled up on my bed trying not to cry and holding on until bedtime.
@pixiemac it's currently on my bedroom floor not fixed and not being fixed :( it's going to cost a fortune to send off and I haven't been able to do it myself, so I need to take it to Dad, but that involves going to him which I don't feel up to right now. Hoping to get across there next weekend Xxx
@naomi Shame you are so far away from Milton Keynes, otherwise I would get it to my local menders for you. Hope you get it back soon. What was it before it ate it's memory card?
@pixiemac thank you - I took it to my ocal camera shop and he told me to try myself with a cocktail stick because it would costs lots to send it off :/ it was a Nikon D5000.
Its a priveledge to follow your journey and see your such beautiful graphic representation of it through the journal pages. but it is painful too. Sounds like you need someone to throw you some buoyancy aids rather than screaming. You will get better at your own pace - not anyone elses. More hugs coming your way.
@pyrrhula thank you, you're so right. It's just how it feels when professionals tell me to 'just eat' @brett101 thank you, I am doing :) @helenhall thank you, you are 100% right, just need services to see it that way sometimes! @travelingcamper thank you so much x @linnypinny thank you - I feel like I learn with each page I do :) @gmonty thank you xxx
@naomi Am I wrong when I think there is a bigger problem behind the not eating one.? You`ve to face those and try to cure from them at first. I supose.
Hugs Naomi xx
(Love those empthy places to)
@brett101 thank you, I am doing :)
@helenhall thank you, you are 100% right, just need services to see it that way sometimes!
@travelingcamper thank you so much x
@linnypinny thank you - I feel like I learn with each page I do :)
@gmonty thank you xxx