People Leave

I dreamed that Dad died
It can't be long can it?
The house was a mess and the kitchen needed doing
I cried but wasn't surprised
I'm terrified of everyone leaving
I think I'm pushing them away
So nobody can hurt me
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Sometimes, I think I could get a bloody degree in messing things up 😂
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Last night was yet another night of notalotof sleep despite a bit of zopiclone. GP tomorrow and as much as I want to see her, I'm kind of nervous because my head has gone into full on crazy mode about a few things tomorrow and I'm reeeeeally struggling to see where I am on the ill--->well scale which is a little unhelpful. My body is so frickin tired. I haven't been able to lie down in almost a week -.-

[Ginger Sanders]

Very powerful. Wild art expression will help.

[Sarah Munnings]

I sympathise, I've shut myself away, just a few very special people in my life now, it's easier than being hurt

[kali]

the first step is to realise it,

[Johanna Koppes]

You get hurt. That is part of life. You have not had it easy, you are so young to have lost your mum. Losing parents is another kind of hurt, it is harsh. Might as well love them while they are here.

[Saxa van Eijnsbergen]

Intense work, the little green cage and the person in it is very powerful. Hope you get a bit of rest.