Acceptance by catsmeowb

Acceptance

She's gone
Oh I, I better learn how to face that
She's gone, she's gone
I can't believe that she's gone -

Daryl Hall lyrics

We found Sophie almost 19 years ago at our town dump with her her two brothers. I will not say they were living under the dumpster but they were, however, surviving. They were so tiny they fit into the palm of my hand. Sophie would hold the other kittens down, growl at them as she ate although she was always the smallest. For years she refused to live inside the house but was very friendly. Whenever I was outside, she showed up and followed me around and talked in her soft, tiny little voice. A few years ago, the night her brother died, she moved into the house and took over his place as my 'lap-cat'. It was strange and mysterious to me. Sophie never got along with Meo and Mordecai; they only tolerated each other. Over the last few weeks, she has eaten less until she just stopped eating completely. Then she stopped drinking. The other day, she woke me up very early but did not want to be held, just wanted to sit on the couch together. Later she toured the house and spent some time in all her special places. She took a short nap on Lola's bed, something she has never done before. Meo washed her face, another first. When Lola went to the door, she went outside with her. I did not want to let her go - but she had lived so much of her life outside, it did not seem like I had the right to stop her. Lucas, our youngest grandson, always called Sophie our mean cat because she would cuff him if he tried to touch her when she was sleeping. She was temperamental. That is why we loved her so much. Good-bye, Sophie, sweet dreams.
I'm so sorry on the loss of your furry family member. IYou're an amazing person for being strong enough for letting her cross the Rainbow Bridge on her own terms. She sounds like she had so much character and brought so much to your life. Your photo of her is beautiful.
August 26th, 2016  
A very sad story but now she's at rest after living a full life.
August 26th, 2016  
@alia_801 oh, it was very difficult but she was not a cuddly kitty, she was always a loner. she did not even come inside, except to eat, until she was 7 years old. such a strange and mysterious little cat. she would sleep next to me on the sofa, but not on my lap. she would hit my husband if he touched her except for this past year. she loved one of my grand daughters. only one. the rest had better stay away. thank you, Alia, it has been hard but i know she is with her brothers and is ok.
August 26th, 2016  
@sangwann i believe that, also. i believe when we have animals we know we will outlive them. sophie was an awesome cat and lead a great life, brought much joy to us. i hope we did the same for her. thank you so much for commenting, i do appreciate it.
August 26th, 2016  
So sorry you had to let Sophie go. as hard as it must've been for your family, she knew it was her time. knowing she is now with her siblings does make it a little easier to take. I admire you for rescuing her in the first place and given her such a loving home.
August 26th, 2016  
@bruni thank you, Bruni, we had a long time together and somehow, it seemed the correct thing to do to allow her to be on her own even though i did not want her to be alone. thank you so much for commenting.
August 26th, 2016  
I'm sorry about your cat. We lost our old cat last year and we havent got another yet. Lovely pic of your Sophie
August 27th, 2016  
You where lucky to have Sophie and she was lucky to have you. They are so smart those animals. you will have great memory and happy and better life because of those cats.
August 27th, 2016  
I'm sorry for your loss. These lyrics are so true.
September 7th, 2016  
@delwynforsythe she lived such a long and happy life, thank you so much for your kind words.
September 7th, 2016  
@kerenmcsweeney i agree, sorry it took me so long to reply, i just noticed the 'notification' but i so appreciate your comment. sophie was very special and i do appreciate you taking the time to comment. thank you again.
September 7th, 2016  
@scatcat yes, they are, so often when i am taking or editing a photo, snippets of a song or poem will float through my mind. they just seem to go together. when i did black and white 35mm work, i took a calligraphy class so i could write on my mattes - now we have our computers to add text boxes but i still use my ink now and then.
September 7th, 2016  
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