RIP my son by kali66

RIP my son

My son Halil took his own life a few days ago, at the age of 23. we cremated him today. this is the lid of the casket that the family painted for him. He suffered from depression and found life difficult enough, but then he got in trouble and it became unbearable for him. It didn't matter how much we loved and cherished him, he found it hard to love himself.

so sad

if you wish to send me a personal message do so at kali66@outlook.co.nz but as I still dont have my own computer i may not be able to reply for a while.
So, so sorry to hear this Kali....I hope you find peace and comfort in your heart.
December 22nd, 2014  
Oh Kali - I think you are very brave posting this when you are hurting so much! My eyes are full of tears for you! My deepest sympathy to you and your family!
December 22nd, 2014  
So, so sorry for your loss.
December 22nd, 2014  
so so sad. the lid of his casket looks a wonderful tribute from your family. look after yourselves at this terribly difficult time x
December 22nd, 2014  
My dear friend I'm so sorry to hear your loss, my love to you all.xxx
December 22nd, 2014  
Kali - I am so saddened to hear this. And I can't actually think of any words that would console for the loss of your son. I hope you have some loving support to wrap around you .. especially at this time of year. Take care x
December 22nd, 2014  
that is unbearably sad - your poor boy kali, clearly deeply loved and himself a lover of nature and animals from that beautiful painting - keeping you in my thoughts
December 22nd, 2014  
My heart bleeds for you Karlene
December 22nd, 2014  
my thoughts are with you
December 22nd, 2014  
Always remember the good times and that you were a caring family for him.
December 22nd, 2014  
Damn. I am so sorry.
December 22nd, 2014  
So sorry to hear this. I also have no words that could possibly console other than saying I hope you have the support you need and my thoughts are with you.
December 22nd, 2014  
My heart goes out to you and your family. So sad.
December 22nd, 2014  
So so so sorry. I will email you. As a mother of a 22 year old daughter who took her own life, I can imagine the devastating effect this has on you all. God bless you all at this time, with kind words and comfort.
December 22nd, 2014  
I am so sorry.
December 22nd, 2014  
Kali, so so so very sorry to hear this. All my sympathy and thoughts are with you.
December 22nd, 2014  
Very sorry to here this... keep your memories close...
December 22nd, 2014  
This is unbearable. The ripples of such sadness spread very far. l am touched that your family painted this for him and you photographed it.
December 22nd, 2014  
My husband's grandson committed suicide last month, so I know how you feel. I think he too could not feel the love that was extended to him. Depression is an awful thing and swallows people whole. I hope you feel the love sent to you from we 365rs.
December 22nd, 2014  
What tragic news. I sat looking at my computer keys for quite some time thinking of what words I could write to convey the wishes I wanted to send to you. I think there are no words so I only say that I am thinking of you at this desperate time.
December 22nd, 2014  
My heart breaks for you and your family, a good friend took his life last year only 40 years old having suffered depression from his teen years. He never knew how so very valued he was. A misunderstood disease that sadly claims more than is bearable. Thank you for posting. I too hope you can feel that we care.
December 22nd, 2014  
So devastating for you & your family, so sorry for your loss. Hugs to you
December 22nd, 2014  
Am so very sad to hear this
December 22nd, 2014  
So sorry to hear this..........life is so hard for so many.
I will keep you in my thoughts.
December 22nd, 2014  
I am so so sorry. All my love to you in this tough time.
December 22nd, 2014  
i am very sad to hear about this, kali. my sincere condolences to you and your family. you are a very strong person and i admire you more for that.
December 22nd, 2014  
So sorry for you and your family's loss. Your family will be in my thoughts through all of this.
December 22nd, 2014  
Dear friend Kali, I am so sorry to hear this. Wish I could be there to give you lots of hugs and support. In lieu of that, you will be in my prayers every day. Take care of yourself and lean on your support system.
December 22nd, 2014  
Oh, Kali... I couldn't believe what I was reading and had to go back to the beginning and start again. This is a truly dreadful, horrific thing to have happened and my heart goes out to you and yours. I will pray to my God for you that you might find comfort and solace in the days and weeks to come. Be strong, but cry lots....
December 22nd, 2014  
My deepest sentiments to you in this moment of pain. Stay strong and please find happiness in your heart and keep faith in this world.
December 22nd, 2014  
Thinking of you.
December 22nd, 2014  
This is really really heartbreaking and so sorry to hear. As a parent and grandparent myself I can only imagine your pain. My thoughts are with you and your family.
December 22nd, 2014  
I am so sorry for your loss...May his memory always burn brightly in your heart.
December 22nd, 2014  
My thoughts will be with you and your family
December 22nd, 2014  
It saddens me to hear this. My sincerest condolences for your loss.
December 22nd, 2014  
o I am so so sorry Kali, sending many hugs your way
December 22nd, 2014  
Thoughts and Prayers for you and your family.
December 22nd, 2014  
So sorry to read this. I hope that he is at peace now. Thinking of you all xx
December 22nd, 2014  
I'm so sorry. I can't think of anything more difficult to handle as a parent than this. I'm praying for you and your family as you walk through this.
December 22nd, 2014  
I'm so sorry to hear this terrible news.
December 22nd, 2014  
I am so so sorry. It is so painful for a mum to see her children suffering from depression. To see love are abundant but invisible to her son; It is so hurting for a mum who fight to break the black wall surrounding her son but the wall is indestructible. I pray for your heart stop bleeding and your son rest in peace where love is finally revealed.
December 22nd, 2014  
I am so sorry for your loss.
December 22nd, 2014  
Kali I'm so, so sorry to hear this. The casket painting is a beautiful tribute. Thinking about you and all your family.
December 22nd, 2014  
Oh no. I'm sorry to hear about this.
December 22nd, 2014  
with deepest sympathies and heartfelt comforting thoughts that you and yours will find solace as you grieve the loss of your son and accept of the mysteries the illness with which he struggled...peace be with you
December 23rd, 2014  
So very sorry. Prayers for you and your family.
December 23rd, 2014  
I am so sorry for your loss. Prayers go out to you, Kali. My heartfelt sympathy
December 23rd, 2014  
So so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you and your family.
December 23rd, 2014  
Oh my. My prayers go out to you and to your family.
December 23rd, 2014  
oh Kali-tragic -sending much prayers your way
December 23rd, 2014  
I´m so very sorry to read this, I´m deeply sorry for your loss Kali! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this difficult time, I am wishing you a lot of strenght and peace of mind. Such beautiful and precious lid, a wonderful idea to personalize the casket.
December 23rd, 2014  
Oh my, I do not know what to say, I am so sorry. This must be so hard for you all. My thoughts are with you!
December 23rd, 2014  
I'm so sorry to hear this Kali.
December 23rd, 2014  
I am sorry for your loss, Kali. You & your family are in my prayers.
December 23rd, 2014  
kali, i hope the wound is starting to heal, and my thoughts are with you and your family in this special time of the year for me. stay strong, my friend.
December 25th, 2014  
Such heart breaking news... I am so very sorry to hear this... Sending you hugs and wishes for tons of strength over the coming days....
December 25th, 2014  
:'( You are brave and beautiful and strong. Deepest sympathy
December 28th, 2014  
Kali, I have no words to say how sorry I am. This must be so hard for you. You and your son are both in my thoughts.
December 29th, 2014  
Oh Kali. Just seeing this. So many hugs to you. Big big hugs. My thoughts are with you.
December 29th, 2014  
Thinking of you still
hope you are holding on
have asked Paul to watch over you all
hugs
December 29th, 2014  
I'm so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you!
December 29th, 2014  
Kali.. My sincere thoughts go out to you and your family. I completely understand what you are going through having experienced a very similar circumstance personally. Kia Kaha
December 29th, 2014  
Sue
Kali, my heart bleeds for you ... I'm so sorry. Thinking of you.
December 30th, 2014  
Kali, I am so sorry to read this heartbreaking news. Wishing you a circle of friends and family that can carry you for a while.
December 30th, 2014  
Oh my ... speechless...
I think of you, Kali! You are a strong woman and I hope that the sun will shine for you again soon.
December 31st, 2014  
So sorry to hear this news of Halil, Karlene. I hope you and your family are getting all the support you need . Thinking of you. Take care xx
January 1st, 2015  
I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you, hope the pain has eased a bit
January 2nd, 2015  
Wanted to drop by. Hugs.
January 3rd, 2015  
Kali, so sorry to hear this. Just stopped by, and couldn't believe what i was reading. Will send you a message on your mail. Take care, dear friend. Lots of love
January 3rd, 2015  
hi, kali. just dropping by to bring you new year wishes - wishing the healing has begun and that the new year brings hope and cheers to you.
January 3rd, 2015  
hope you are surrounded by love and family
January 4th, 2015  
Just dropping by to say I am thinking of you. A New Year, going on relentlessly when all you want is to put the clocks back. My heart breaks for you.
January 4th, 2015  
Thinking of you!
January 5th, 2015  
Still thinking about you wanting to reach out in this worst possible time. It is just so hard and it makes me so mad then so sad. I really hate it. Missing your photos.
January 5th, 2015  
Kali I have been away for sometime and only returned to 365 today.... I was devastated to hear your heartbreaking news... my heart breaks for you. Sending you and your family all of my love xxxxxxx
January 11th, 2015  
Oh Kali. I have been away also. So sorry for your loss. Just devastating. Virtual hugs, hope you can have some peace.
January 11th, 2015  
I'm so very sorry, hope you can take some strength from the love of this community.
January 11th, 2015  
I'm so sorry Kali! Sending you love and light!
January 11th, 2015  
I'm so sorry for your loss. Suicide is one of the most painful things. Here in the US we have things like group counseling for those close to those who committed suicide and my friend found it very helpful, I hope you're able to get whatever sort of understanding and comfort you need where you are.
January 12th, 2015  
My thoughts are with you, I cannot imagine the pain you must feel. Love to you and your family.
January 12th, 2015  
Thoughts are with you and your family. Words are so inadequate at times like these. I hope happy memories can help ease the pain. Take care
January 16th, 2015  
I have only just seen this Kali and I'm so, so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.
January 16th, 2015  
@gigiz i need gigi babble
January 20th, 2015  
Oh kali. I read but wish I hadn't. I wish you didn't have to go through this. Warm, big squeeze hugs and prayers and light to you
January 23rd, 2015  
Oh my goodness Kali, I wondered why I haven't seen you and came to find out. I am so sorry, I hope you have lots of people around to help you through this time. I know what it's like to lose a child, hugs, prayers and thoughts are with you.
January 23rd, 2015  
Meg
I am still thinking of you daily. Your presence around here and at 5+2 is so sorely missed. I hope that you are finding peace. I am so very sorry.
January 23rd, 2015  
I'm late hearing of your tragic loss. I can only imagine the grief you and your family have been experiencing. Depression can go so deep and feel so hopeless. We lose too many young people to this serious illness.
My heart and prayers go out to you--((((big, warm hugs, too.)))))
I love the casket painting--it's a beautiful tribute to your lost boy.
January 29th, 2015  
I only just read this. I feel so heartily for you and your family . So sad. My son is 23 and I think how long his lifetime seems to have been. And all the agonies you must be going through. My prayers and thoughts are with you to find some solace through this difficult time. Lovely individual casket.
Hugs to you.
February 22nd, 2015  
I'm just reading this and I am so sad to hear of your loss. I have no words but my thoughts are with you and your family. xx
March 15th, 2015  
No mother should ever have to bear such pain. I am so sorry for your impossible loss, Kali. I know it has been sometime since then, but I am sure you are still hurting and part of you will always be. Love and prayers to you for comfort whenever you need it. Wish I could give you a hug.
July 21st, 2015  
:(
November 6th, 2015  
i'm so sorry
October 18th, 2016  
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