an artist i am not by summerfield

an artist i am not

i've been taking online lessons from my sister so i could learn how to draw. it's not working. i am hopeless. but i learned about shading so i've been using that with my colouring books. this thing here took me about three days to do. i used the shading techniques my sister taught me and she gave me a thumbs up for it.

i have long ago admitted to myself that i cannot and will never be a painter. i have to look in my archives and on google to see how the watermelon looks like as well as the other stuff in the photo. it is not easy. plus i want to be perfect right away. i taught myself how to play the guitar and play a couple of pieces on the piano because i could read notes. i can do percentages and compound interest in my head. i taught my little boy how to skate when i've never skated in my life ever. i have taught people to speak english without them knowing not even the basic words. i learned french, i learned german. i learned to do cross stitch with an advance pattern not a beginners'. once upon a time i learned how to bake cakes and pies people were buying them. and i learned how to cook beef bourguignon and other intricate dishes and made sit-down dinners for at least twenty people (ah, but that was a long time ago). i'm afraid of people and yet i could deliver a speech in front of an audience. why the f*** could i not learn how to draw or paint?

i could now understand my father's frustration when he saw me colouring a drawing when i was in grade 2, an assignment in art. he was telling me how i should colour each item and yet my crayola kept getting out of the outline. even now that is my problem. he gave up on me, first of all because he was an impatient person. and i couldn't blame him, seeing how i fared with this simple drawing. i am hopelessly artless. when in college my father saw a poem and a story i wrote got published in magazines, i heard him tell my mother that at least i can paint in words. well, at least i have that.

well, i suppose no one's perfect.

i decided, because i am such a sucker for punishment, to composite the drawing with one of my cloud shots. why? because...

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speaking of no perfect, if you are so inclined, please mosey on down to five plus two and see how imperfect i am with my photography: https://365project.org/fiveplustwo/365/2020-07-22
If you can make a line or a circle, then you can draw— take a look at Picasso’s art- they’re weird,crooked,and personally they’re ugly but he’s one of the greatest and famous artist in the world and I’m a fan💕💕💕
July 23rd, 2020  
@joemuli - i laughed at your comment about picasso. i could not like his drawings although i have a print of his "old guitarist" framed and sitting on the floor of my store room. i didn't even know it was picasso's. had i known at the outset when someone gave it to me i would've thrown it away. but i was told to keep it. i'm sooooo sending it to you when postal services aren't asinine as they are now. thanks, kid.
July 23rd, 2020  
i think a lot of the time our problem is we have an idea of how its supposed to look before we start, then we think we failed, instead of letting the art be its own thing
July 23rd, 2020  
@kali66 - no, i just really suck at it! 🤣
July 23rd, 2020  
I tried to learn to draw earlier this year (pre-COVID) but it turned out the class I'd enrolled in was more of a social gathering than a learning place. :( I suck at it too and did need proper lessons.
July 23rd, 2020  
Draw what you feel. Photograph what you see. Lines don't have to be perfect or colouring exact, art is a representation in any form and I think your drawing has style
July 23rd, 2020  
I think a lot of us have that moment that killed the creativity, especially when it comes to drawing. Your story made me a little sad, like those dark clouds ready to ruin your colorful picnic...
July 23rd, 2020  
I don't know how you can say you can't draw but yet you drew this picture. I like it and its way better than anything I could do
July 23rd, 2020  
A stunning image.
July 23rd, 2020  
oh there are many kinds of art you know!
July 23rd, 2020  
@kjarn - no, kathy, i didn't draw the picture. it's a page from a colouring book that i coloured using the shading techniques that my sister taught me. i have to look at photos of watermelon so i could colour properly. if i was left to my own devices, the watermelon would've been just red all over and the sea perhaps orange, who knows! 😂 and i can assure you that i tried to draw this but it came out looking like a giant blob with some kind of spikes! thanks, friend.
July 23rd, 2020  
Well it’s a nice picture and you’ve done great shading. You may never be able to draw as well as you like but colouring in can be just as enjoyable and quite therapeutic. 😃😃
July 23rd, 2020  
You've done a better job this than I could manage Vikki. My drawing/ painting skills are non existent and I wouldn't know where to begin with shading.
July 23rd, 2020  
Very nice!
July 23rd, 2020  
I think is fantastic. Don't be so hard on yourself
July 23rd, 2020  
whether or not you are an artist, you sure can colour!
July 23rd, 2020  
I think this is amazing! Being an artist doesn’t necessarily mean being able to color or paint images perfectly! You have had a very artistic concept here to combine your drawing with your photography and I think that’s very artistic! As a matter fact it has inspired me… If I can remember long enough to do something about it.
July 23rd, 2020  
you are such an accomplished artist in so many fields. Woman you can ROAR !!!!! I wish I had all your talents ... I have a hard time drawing a stick figure so there's that ......
July 23rd, 2020  
Although I can totally relate to how you feel, I completely agree with @francesc. You are an artist in many ways and it’s totally fine, often times better, to draw (and think!) outside the lines!
July 23rd, 2020  
Interesting combination of the artwork and photo of the clouds.
July 24th, 2020  
Vikki, this is wonderful, you most certainly are an artist!
July 24th, 2020  
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