Today was my husband's funeral. I thought I would hate it because I don't like formalities but we did it our way and I liked it more than I thought I would.
It poured down rain for the exact time we were there which is strange..My husband said he hoped it would rain as he loved the rainy days the most. The sun came out minutes after we left.
Now it's my time to work out who I am now. Seppo will always be with me in my heart but I have decisions to make without him here.
I am surrounded by loviing family and friends so I know I will make it through the hard days.
Great big hugs to you. I have been wondering when Seppo's funeral would be and have held you and your lovely family in my prayers since hearing of his passing. I absolutely love the synchronicity of Seppo's hopes and the reality of the day. I am sure he was looking down on you smiling as the rain came tumbling down.
Remember, to take your time and allow the rediscovery of you to unfold in it's own perfect timing. Seppo will always be in your heart as you take each step forward and embrace life's newest moments surrounded by your wonderful family and friends. You've got this.
Obviously a very befitting funeral for your husband and I'm sure he was smiling down on you as the rain tumbled down. It's pleasing that his funeral wasn't as daunting as you expected but a farewell you can remember in a wonderful way. Now it's time to look after yourself - do what your heart wants to do, not what other people think you should. He will always remain in your heart but life does continue - there will be ups and downs along the way but you appear to have strength to cope with this. You're in my thoughts constantly. Family and friends are so important.
First, love the photo, just beautiful. Second, wow you have an amazing outlook. My heart goes out to you at this time and as you navigate life without him. Sending much love.
How befitting for Seppo's wishes to come true with the weather, amplifying his presence. Your words, "Now it's time to work out who I am now" took me back to that first year when my grief counselor said exactly the same thing to me, and I hadn't thought of such a thing. He asked, "Who are you, in the absence of him?" That question still lingers with me as I try to work it out. This pandemic has forced me to consider this question intensely and differently than before as I am home alone all the time now. I'm glad you have Eddie.
@jyokota I am having thoughts about what it will be like being home alone so far my house has been full of family but next week I will start the actual new routine. It almost takes my breath away thinking about months of not Seppo coming home.. let alone forever. I had not considered how covid effects those alone at home.
Remember, to take your time and allow the rediscovery of you to unfold in it's own perfect timing. Seppo will always be in your heart as you take each step forward and embrace life's newest moments surrounded by your wonderful family and friends. You've got this.