Please bear with me as I write a rather lengthy description of my day and this picture. I don't post these things on social media so I use this as a way to unburden my soul, knowing only a handful of folks may see this. I usually enjoy my Saturdays….a day with no agenda. I can do what I wish. Today was no exception but the day was filled with reflective, sad, and miserable feeling moments. 1. My shoulders still hurt like heck from pulling a neck muscle mid-week. 2. I felt unsteady...I don't think it was vertigo and it wasn't constant but it was noticeable at times. 3. My hip. 4. A dear friend/soul is in the hospital with heart concerns. 5. I started spring cleaning which unearthed previously unknown sentimental objects from my Thom. Reminded me why I loved him and how much I miss him. They also reminded me he probably prompted me to clean so I would find these objects and be able to remember his love for us all. Grief is complicated. 6. Heard indirectly from the love of my youth. So many memories. So I went outside for the first time this spring, in-between the raindrops, and enjoyed the 70 degree temps and cried. Still crying. Listening to a 2 disc set of a live James Taylor concert, made by Thom. He knew I loved JT. Loved being outside again after a very long winter and no spring to talk of yet It really helped my mood. That and a hot shower on my shoulders. I hope anyone who reads this has a peaceful day/evening.
Thanks for sharing! A lot of people have similar problems, but few say that! This is a burden to be borne by those who remain here. My mother's death is very worn out! I refused to accept that I could no longer see or talk to him! Then I thought, would my mother want to see me torment myself? I changed it! I accepted the impossible! After the deaths of my loved ones, I remember the photos of them on their birthday! On the day of their death, I will light a candle in their memory and for their spiritual salvation! I let them go, but they stayed with me! I also acknowledged that there is a deadly disease: old age! A crossroads full of pain, which I do not deny, but I acknowledge that this must be walked through! To whom long, to whom short! I try to notice the beautiful and the good in everything! Not easy, but it can be done! I hope the translation is good!
