A little over a month ago, I spent a sleepless night at the bedside of my mother, making her comfortable... holding her hand, suctioning her airway, wiping her face, talking to her, and trying to understand what she was so desperately trying to tell me. Later that afternoon, I witnessed her very last breath. A huge part of me is lost. When I am busy, I am ok. When I am not, whether I am thinking of her or something else, I am foggy. I can't get my head straight... I haven't updated here in a long time, because of life. I am trying everything I can to find a new normal and be ok with life as it is now. I love my photos and what taking them does for me so maybe it is time to put more of a focus on that. My mom loved them, too. She was alive but wasn't with me when I took this one. I know she would have adored the moment... maybe even more than I did. And, just for technicalities, this isn't actually a photo but a screen shot of a video from my phone as I recorded this magical moment. It was truly amazing.
So sorry for your loss. For me, time spent with my camera is akin to meditation. Hoping you, too, can find some comfort and peace in your photography. Meanwhile, this is wonderful! I love hummingbirds, though we don't have any here. To me, this is simply amazing!
I am sorry for your loss. I can relate because I lost both my parents in 2014 within 5 weeks of each other. I am sure she must have been so comforted by your loving presence. Love your photos! Fav!
Life is such a mixed bag of wonderful moments and loss. For me, the only way to get through is to enjoy the hell out of the wonderful moments, because we know we will also have to go through the loss. Sounds like your mom was someone who enjoyed the heck out of her's and I hope you can get to where you can again too.
Wow, what a shot... this is such a difficult thing to face, loss and regret and just full on missing. May you find as many moments of contentment as there are available.
