Today started off horrifically and just got worse and worse and worse. Then, at lunch, I met up with one of my friends and we went to the co-op and she bought instant cookie mix. We went back to the art room and she filled it with water to make it into dough and forced me to have some :') Apparently no-one can resist cookie dough :P (it actually tasted quite nice!) Then, I found out I got an A in my art homework which made me stupidly happy, so I finished off the rest of my lunch. Then I had two frees which passed without incident.
My DT teacher has clearly noticed something's not quite right. He hasn't said anything, as such. But he left me alone today, and when I asked for something this afternoon he came and told me the answer and then just sat down next to me, asked me a few questions and we talked about nothing much :)
Still not feeling amazing but there is definitely some hope now, at least. I'm going to absorb myself in artyness and then go to bed :)
I like this one best! Well done on the A, sounds like your school work is going well. I guess it won't be long till you have lots of deadlines and january exams though!
So sorry about your difficulties. Try to just get through each day...and don't worry so much about everything. I know that you are likely a perfectionist, but you have to let some things just go. Take care of yourslef, too. I'm thinking about you and know that you can get throug this as well. You are so creative, intelligent, kind, and giving....!
Given what you wrote today, this does look like "the light at the end of the tunnel"! You wrote of the terrible morning, but the day did seem to improve. I thought it was very telling that your teacher came and sat with you, clearly sounding like he was reaching out to you in concern. Sieze times like that...people connecting with one another is such a nice thing. Wishing you an improved day tomorrow...cookie dough is often a solution to life's problems!
congratulations on your A!