I'm running from moment to moment without stopping or thinking. I'm just trying to be okay and productive in the here and now but I've completely lost touch with how I'm actually feeling. I have my CPN tomorrow and I need to tell her I've decided against the referral (it was a referral to a 2-da-a-week therapeutic community. But it's for people with personality disorders and I don't have a personality disorder. I also can't really afford to cut down my hours that much).
In other news, I thought my legs were improving but the last two days there hasn't been a single minute when they've not wither been painful, had pins and needles and/or had numbness. And today I think I broke my fluid balance. Basically, I'm a messssss.
