We did a live stream at work for mental health awareness week.
I haven't done much for mental health awareness week this year. To be honest, it's because I'm busy living my life, trying not to get bogged down by illness.
This evening I'm absolutely exhausted as I've almost finished another week of work. I'm not quite back at my full hours yet but I *will* get there.
I'm reflecting on how lovely it is to have the window open and a little bit of air. How lovely it is to almost be able to breathe a little. To see some tiny little chinks in the blackness of depression.
There is such a long way to go with everything... such a long road to recovery ahead of me that a lot of the time it can feel overwhelming and impossible.
But tonight I'm grateful. I'm grateful for being able to work, for working with an incredibly amazing and inspiring bunch of people both in Blurt and in the Discovery Hub. I'm grateful for the sunshine. I'm grateful for my car because without it I wouldn't be able to work or really leave the flat until my physical health improves. I'm grateful for all of the people who are helping me learn to carve my own path and live my own life. I've spent too long living as the version of me that I thought others wanted me to be and I can't do it any more. I'm lucky to have some wonderful people supporting me to work out what *I* want. Not what I think everyone else wants. I'm grateful for creativity. For art, because it is allowing me to communicate things that have been stuck for almost all of my life.
I'm honestly just so grateful for the people around me and for where I am in life right now. There's a long way to go, yes, but I've come such a long way since November and I couldn't have done it without some amazing people by my side (people who've had to put up with an awful lot).
This mental health awareness week I mainly just want to say thank you. Thank you to all of the people who are helping me learn to thrive
