The onyx will always remind me of you, your strength, your ambitions, your goals. I will never reach the success you have attained for yourself, and I wish I could share it with you. But I have known from the very beginning that we are not meant to be, at least for now. I always believed that if God wills us to be together, it would not matter when. I know your heart will always belong to me and I know you know mine belongs to you.
I had always wanted to give you this since college. But I didn't want you to think I was trying to tie you down; I know you have places to go to and goals to achieve. The chain is not real, but the stones and the setting are real. I had always dreamed it would be our 'engagement pendant'.
I will never forget you. You will always be my "Onie".
love,
Ben"
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i had to go to my safety deposit box to take this pendant. tonight, when i opened the little box, i remembered that this was accompanied by a note. the paper is so frail and is almost crumbling i can't even have it scanned. my heart was palpitating when i re-read the note. benjamin gave it to me in the early 80's, when we met again after so many years. imagine hiding that from your wife for so long, but i understand his mother held it for him all that time.
when we were dating, he'd come by our house and would sometimes find me playing guitar and i always played the song "onie" by the electric prunes. when he's being sweet, he'd call me onie instead of honey because i hated the term "honey" - i thought it was just for old people.
thank you for your visits and your comments; know that they are much appreciated.
@olivetreeann - thank you, ann. there are so many memories that i have already forgotten and because of these challenges, i get to recall them. the little box of this necklace was waaaay at the far end of that long safety deposit box. i had wanted to get a real gold chain for this but i didn't and i was surprised tonight that there's no discoloration on the chain. when i came to canada, i also thought of having this appraised but i really didn't want to put a price on it, the memory alone is priceless (and that's according to partner).
