Clematis To Be by cdonohoue

Clematis To Be

I didn't upload yesterday - it was a horrible day and I don't have horrible days. Since this is part journal, here goes.

Always make sure that everyone around you knows what you want done when you die. Say it loud and clear and leave it in writing! We had David cremated, per his wishes. His mother is convinced that he was only joking about that.

Have a will that clearly leaves what you own to those that you wish to inherit your "stuff." We have been cleaning out the three rooms that an incredibly sick and twisted mind lived in for the last 30 years. I will never tell her what we found up those steps. But she is convinced that all that he had belonged to her to distribute and not the boys. There was one really nice flat screen tv and several computers and a small amount of money that we are using to pay final expenses- the rest is unmentionable. We are trying to figure out how to dispose of things and I think an incinerator or dump situation. We can't "tell" her what she didn't get to inherit.

Never say hateful things to one another in the midst of grief. Remember that your words can never be unspoken. I know that she is going through the very worst that a mother can have happen. I'm a strong woman. She can take anything out on me that she wants - but not my sons right now who are dealing with the loss of their father and learning things that can't be unlearned.

Always, always treat one another with love. Walk away if you are going to say or do something that varies from that. It isn't worth it - not today or any other day.

Gorgeous. Off to the zoo today. So sorry for what you are dealing with, my friend!
May 26th, 2014  
So beautiful - fav for me!
May 26th, 2014  
Great capture.
May 26th, 2014  
Very sound words. I can only hope future days are better for all of you.
Love your clematis and can't wait to see it wide open. They are such magnificent flowers.
May 26th, 2014  
A beautiful image. So sorry you are having such a torrid time, an awful situation to deal with but your words show that you have a good understanding of what you are going through and how to deal with it. Keep strong.
May 26th, 2014  
You are such a wonderful person, Cathy. I know you are struggling greatly to handle this situation with the utmost dignity and moral correctness. I am sure it is wearing you down at every turn and I am equally certain you are still going forward in spite of your possible desire to throw your hands up and just quit. The sacrifices you are making right now are being noticed by your sons and the character you are helping to build in them by making those sacrifices will strengthen them as men and make them better people. In time you will be able to look back on this and know that as difficult as it was it was done right. You ARE a wonderful person.
May 26th, 2014  
Beautiful picture and such a sad story. I admire you for rising above the disillusionment.
May 26th, 2014  
this is so beautiful! and so sorry for everything going on right now!
May 26th, 2014  
very pretty!
May 26th, 2014  
Agree with your sentiments. Stay strong.
May 26th, 2014  
What True words Cathy I always think take each day as it comes as you never know what is around the Corner Fav photo stay strong and keep well Xx.
May 26th, 2014  
Fantastic words. Thank you for sharing in the midst of your troubles.
May 26th, 2014  
Beautifully captured.
May 26th, 2014  
A beautiful capture!! I know just what you mean about people grabbing everything. The same thing happened when my father's aunt died. His sister walked in and took everything,quite a few antique items,too.My dad just walked away,disgusted.
May 26th, 2014  
Wise words. Thank you.
May 26th, 2014  
Dear Cathy, my heart goes out to you. Your sons and mother in law are fortunate to have a person of such integrity in the midst of this difficult time. Take care.
May 26th, 2014  
So pretty!
May 26th, 2014  
A beautiful image Cathy worth a fav Your days are rather disturbed at the moment -- my heart goes out to you at this difficult time -- be brave and shield those boys as any mother would -- xx
May 26th, 2014  
rather wonderful cathy, i might be posting one of these later when i've sorted my pics out
May 26th, 2014  
Beautiful
May 26th, 2014  
Super gorgeous:)
May 26th, 2014  
Beautiful... and I ditto what Katy said!
May 27th, 2014  
Deb
Gorgeous capture. And I too echo what Katy stated.
May 27th, 2014  
Such a beautiful capture, Cathy. You are so right--people must know exactly what we want. You are such a wonderful person with an amazing heart.
May 27th, 2014  
Such a beautiful shot, Cathy. I am glad you have written what you have as everyone needs to know how to handle a situation like this. I try to be a peaceful person and walk away before saying something I may regret and cool down. My thoughts are with you during this trying time and may your strength continue to help your sons and yourself get through this together.
May 27th, 2014  
Beautiful image and words.
May 27th, 2014  
You are so wise and loving. Your words mean more to me than you know because of my situation with my ex, our children and his mother. Thank you for sharing. Take care, Cathy.
Your clematis shot is gorgeous ~ fav
May 27th, 2014  
Wise words and I am so sorry you are having to go through all of this.
Your Clematis shot is beautiful.
May 27th, 2014  
You are a wise woman, Cathy! Don't know what to say - wish I could just give you a hug and a cuppa. Or a margarita.
May 27th, 2014  
@timandelke Elke I would love a margarita! I just got home from planning my ex husband's memorial service. Michael is at work in Indianapolis and Andy is at work here - so I am still taking care of David! I will be very glad when this week is over and I can start thinking of photographs and flowers and find my happy life.
May 27th, 2014  
Beautiful shot, sorry you are having such a tough time right now.
May 27th, 2014  
I have been absent from 365 for several weeks and have been unaware of the terrible time you're going through right now. I would like to add my sympathy and offer prayers for peace and comfort as you walk down this difficult road.
May 29th, 2014  
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and imagery Cathy. You are an amazingly inspirational, wise and loving woman.
May 31st, 2014  
beautiful shot, Cathy. Your words are so true, tell people what you want in advance. Thinking of you and sending prayers.
June 3rd, 2014  
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