Apologies for the lack of comments, I'm so busy at the moment, I'm really feeling like I can't do this course, that I'm too far behind already with the placement change and that I'm just not going to make it. It's really hard to stay motivated at the moment when it all seems so futile, I want to drop out, but then what would I do?! I'm regretting my decision to do this course at the moment, I want my old job back, even if it didn't pay enough.
That is a cool landscape . Love the detail even though it is misty. Re the course hang on in there I am sure it will all be ok and worth the effort. Try and break it down into smaller chunks that you can deal with, even if these are as small as getting to string, lunch , leaving. Hitting these mini targets will help and then take you on to the big target. Be kind to yourself at least as well.
I agree with @padlock, take it day by day otherwise if you look at the whole thing and it seems too daunting you will just freeze. It must be difficult having had a bit of a false start but I bet you can do it, and I bet most of the people who have just started are feeling the same. Why don't you try and speak to somebody at the university. They might be able to put things in perspective, and allay your fears.
Lovely photo Louise, love the way the hay bales look like little ants. Sorry to hear you are having such a tough time at the moment. Hang in there, you would regret giving up more than not doing it in the first place. Don't worry about commenting, just post when you get chance and go easy on yourself. Remember why you wanted to do this in the first place and everything you did to get there. The end seems so long at the minute but it will be all worth it. I agree with @jantan, definitely worth speaking to your tutors for support and advice. The sooner they know you are struggling the better, there is always a solution. Stick with it xxxx
Thank you all, I had already emailed a uni lecturer and said I wanted to talk, I don't know if the university know that I've even changed placements, as training is mostly school based. All the school based mentors have been trained today (everyone is annoyed that didn't happen much sooner) so now my mentor will have half a clue on the paperwork we have to do, maybe things will start to happen. I really don't want to be doing this and I don't feel confident or competent at the moment, but I read some inspiring words today -- "there is no progress without challenge". Once upon a time I thought I was incapable of writing a dissertation, getting a degree, even being a teaching assistant, and I did well with all of that... and I've made it this far!
Everyone has said it all. Certainly don't worry about commenting, no one is going to mind. It's been a huge change for you and the placement thing a real pain. You are doing ok. Love this shot.
I was one of the first nursing students to go through the Project 2000 training in 1992 in our area. Nobody in the NHS wanted the changes to the training and no one knew what to do with us, how to fill out the paperwork or what to do with us on our placements! Very slowly we proved ourselves and fought against people's assumptions and negativity. I understand a bit of what you are going through but you will get there. I am constantly surprised myself with where I am and what I do now. You will do so well and as you so rightly say look at all you have achieved so far!! Love your quote ;))
Thank you all, I had already emailed a uni lecturer and said I wanted to talk, I don't know if the university know that I've even changed placements, as training is mostly school based. All the school based mentors have been trained today (everyone is annoyed that didn't happen much sooner) so now my mentor will have half a clue on the paperwork we have to do, maybe things will start to happen. I really don't want to be doing this and I don't feel confident or competent at the moment, but I read some inspiring words today -- "there is no progress without challenge". Once upon a time I thought I was incapable of writing a dissertation, getting a degree, even being a teaching assistant, and I did well with all of that... and I've made it this far!