Stuck in time.

We went to our cottage in The Dales today. I love The Dales and despite having completely inappropriate clothes and shoes, I managed a little wander in the wind and found some happy lambs.

I feel so 'stuck' right now. I hate being asked by family all about my life/living situation/finances/uni/job/everything. Even worse is when they clearly disapprove :(

I feel stuck between wanting to do things and not being well enough to do them. I'm normally too tired to even want to do anything... Being around people today hits home again how far I've come from where I was. I don't know if/when I will return to uni. I don't know very much right now. I love The Dales, too, and part of me wants to move out there, but I also know it would be really easy to isolate myself and really hard to get a job. Friends around me are getting jobs, getting married, having children, graduating, moving on with their lives. I wake up and cry because I have to get up. I am beginning to feel at home in York and I am beginning to build up a life here. But in my moments of 'hope' or 'okayness', I can't help but mourn the life I've left behind.

[maree_sanderson]

omg girl...you're still going throught the grief for your mum and all sorts of other stuff...don't be so hard on yourself...it takes time...time and tears will heal...meanwhile just try to do the best you can with what you have at the time...no one can ask more than that...and if your best isn't real great, so what?...it's still your best...sometimes my best was staying in bed all day with my head under the covers...i got up eventually...so will you...big hugs... :o)

[Lana Hill]

It's so good to see you back on here. I, too, suffered a great loss. Trying to get back on my feet. Life is full of ups and downs... Get thru the downs and enjoy the ups. Use photography as therapy. Big hugs!

[Carla]

Those are definitely not Dales appropriate shoes. I'm glad you managed to find a little space for yourself to wander. Eyes to the future Naomi it's going to be brighter than you can imagine right now x

[Kevin Wallace]

Beautifully rendered image and heartfelt feelings. It doesn't have to all make sense at once, keep talking :) fav and follow for me

[Swillin' Billy Flynn]

Forward motion starts with the first tiny step. Forget what you can't do at the moment and concentrate on what you can do. \the rest will come with time. :)