I wrote a whole thing but it looked stupid so I painted over it.
I can't be dealing with this in-between. I'm fed up and frustrated. I'm sick of the rules. Both mine, my heads, and the ones professionals keep concocting. I just want to be able to live my life but they won't let me. And some of the rules are downright stupid in my opinion. I just want to be free. To be me. I don't want to feel great or be amazing or anything, I just want to be able to do my jobs and come home and paint and sleep. I want to be able to plan things and not have to think everything through to the nth degree and come up with a load of alternate plans just because my head is a knob. I'm sick of all of it. I just want to be allowed to live.
