My palette needs a clean... although I'm probs just going to move onto my new one bc it's reaching impossible levels lol.
Sorry for the mass upload today.
I'm very tired and very, very, very low. I want to get back to you all and look through your photos but in all honesty I don't have the energy.
I had a horrible appointment this morning. Another assessment but it was awful. I don't know why they can't just read my notes, I left and sat on some steps and cried.
I had a GP appointment which helped a little. I cried on her though, and went through my journal. I have to have an ECG again and the BP machine broke so I escaped that. She mentioned the Crisis Team again but no.
I'm incredibly low. I'm trying. But my body has stopped functioning as well as it should (I'm having problems with blood pressure and also with my legs, so it limits how much I can do with regards to going outside). I'm trying to keep going. To keep breathing. To stay alive. But I feel smothered. It's drowning me. It's overwhelming. My GP is away next week. I haven't got a CPN appointment for another three weeks. I know it's up to me, I know I have to make changes. I'm just so tired and I'm already doing all that I feel I can. I'm trying so hard. I'm really trying. I'm just so horrifically low.
big gentle hugs to you xxxxx