Is it when you can't walk around a field a few times without your body dying for days after? Is it when you're sat there sending up a prayer to just let you just get home? Is it when you're attempting to arrange blood tests around work (and failing spectacularly)? Is it when your bloods are a mess and you're battling thoughts to just not to get them checked because then they can't get any worse? Is it when you're supposed to be on more drugs than the average 90 year old? Is it when you miss birthdays, christmases, holidays and more? Is it when your start crying in Tesco? When? When is it enough? Because I am trying but I am exhausted. My body is exhausted. My mind feels like it is taking a constant battering over quite literally everything.
