This little guy is working overtime at the moment. I spend so much of my life in pain or cold (or both) that he's almost constantly in use. Last night was awful, I felt so sick/ill. I took meds (which I never do), slept slightly upright, and still was up 5/6 times in the night so I'm exhausted.
I went to the GP this morning and my blood pressure was even worse than normal (with regards to my postural drop). She was talking about admitting me and said I needed to drink water and she would reassess me, so she left me in a side room with a plastic cup and it was awful because it was the wrong time of day and the wrong drink and the wrong recepticle and no straw, but I drank it because otherwise she'd have made me eat/admitted me/both and thankfully it fixed it enough for me to escape. I don't know what to think any more.
I rang Dad earlier (being brave and all) following an appointment with the uni welfare advisors. I decided with them to take leave of absence again, rather than leaving uni altogether, because then if I change my mind this time next year, I haven't completely closed that door. So I brought it up with Dad thinking he'd be really unhappy that I'm taking leave again, and he actually suggested leaving altogether and following my career! As in he brought it up not me which was a huge revelation and such a relief! So I am still going to do the LoA because there's nothing to lose by that, but will probably leave altogether.
The people who I might be (hopefully) taking the writing job with have asked me to do a few blogs for them freelance because their editing stream has died a little, so that's good because it's helping me to see if I can do it (plus pay is always good!).
My mood is still awful, and thoughts aren't good, but I've survived another day so there's that!
its hard to know how much all those medications hurt and how much they help isnt it? hooray for your Dad, that must be a great confirmation of what you already felt. good luck with the writing, will hopefully give your mind something better to chew on
Well that is pleasant news from your Pop. And good news about the potential job. I think you'd be very good at it judging from your posts here and your blog. Pulling for you. And you have Hooty in your corner too!
@kali66 it really is. I wish I could just come off them all and start again but that doesn't appear to be an option at the present time @alophoto@halkia@kwind@craftymeg Thank you all so much :) @stray_shooter Thank you - English was always my worst subject in school but blogging seems to work!
@alophoto @halkia @kwind @craftymeg Thank you all so much :)
@stray_shooter Thank you - English was always my worst subject in school but blogging seems to work!
@janetb @kjarn Thank you - it definitely helps to have him onside!