I thought I could somehow fix you.
I thought it would surely change.
I thought this house could be a home.
I thought the settling would turn into something else-something magnificent.
I thought that was all I deserved.
But we're back to square one. And here I am. Realizing I MADE this house my home. I can be whomever I want to be. I don't need to settle.
Year 1 is underway. And it's going to be one hell of a ride.
I'm 10 years after your year 1 and can say that being whomever you want and not settling is really very empowering. That first year, though, was really tough!