July 1 words by francoise

July 1 words


Dusty / study
Here is a peek into my dusty study, a room in the basement in which I sew, do academic work and play with glitter. It's a fine mess,  I know, but no one ever comes in there and so is a sort of private sanctuary in this house full of boys and their toys. Last winter I had the bright idea (truly, I'm not being sarcastic) of buying a small electric heater which meant that I could inhabit the unheated room in the dead of winter as well as the rest of the year.   Eventually, we'll take out the loft bed and it will be a full room.

When I was young, a good deal of jocularity surrounded the notion that my cousin J had a "study."  His father, who was an academic mathematician/ philosopher had a study, so little J had to have one as well, but where his father had shelves of books, 4 year old J had shelves of toys. I slept in it one Christmas visit, and was thoroughly enchanted by the number and variety of toys there were.  I must have thought the thermostat on the wall over the bed was a toy as well, for one night I stood on the bed and turned the dial, thus roasting the entire family and causing an enormous and unexpected middle-of-the-night commotion.

The last few nights I have been dreaming about this cousin, whom I have seen maybe two times in the past 40 years, dreams of sadness and grief.  It's very strange when a particular individual makes an appearance multiple times  in a row like that.   I have a sensation of being sent some message that I am just not yet getting.  J's father, my uncle who I did see many times over the years, told me once that the way to make progress on a math problem (or any sort of project)  was to revisit it every day, to keep mulling it over and fiddling with it. I guess that is what a study is for.   Perhaps if I go there and do that with my dreams about J, I will get the message.
Nice and homely and you know where everything is in there
July 23rd, 2021  
I have a room like this, too, but mine is past the point of me doing anything in there. I found your narrative so interesting. I don't believe in dreams as future predictions, but I do think that dreams address current issues or situations we are facing. Thanks for sharing.
July 23rd, 2021  
I like your decorating style. It's very familiar. I hope you figure out your dream. Perhaps you can reconnect with "J".
July 23rd, 2021  
Good to see I have a kindred spirit in you with this study. Mine is a sewing room and at times has been so cluttered that only a path led from one machine to the next! (getting there again as I write!) Perhaps your sadness and grief have to do with how infrequently you have connect with that cousin and you should contact him!
Thanks for sharing your dream AND your room!
July 23rd, 2021  
Looks comfy...My work area is cluttered but I know exactly where to find what I need in a split second. Great narrative...Intuitiveness is something I lean on quite often especially in my senior years.
July 24th, 2021  
I also have a similar study, where I give myself permission to leave as it is.
July 24th, 2021  
A space to be you! I'd keep the loft bed but redesign as a reading nook.
July 24th, 2021  
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