Obsessed by myautofocuslife

Obsessed

Is it an obsession? I guess it comes close. I love these little guys. I find one, and I feel excitement, I feel elated, I whisper, "Stay right there, don't move, let me get a good shot" and I start shooting from every possible angle and, the more I shoot, the better I feel. It's a drug.

I am aware that my macro shots aren't even that good. Have you seen real macro shots? True, jaw-droppingly gorgeous, incredible macro shots where you can count every single hair on a spider's head? I can't do those. I am never going to be able to make them because I don't intend to get a dSLR or awesome macro lenses or extension tubes etc. I will not be learning to do focus stacking. I will not be using artificial lighting.

In many ways, I suppose, there will be photographers who find my attitude offensive. Why bother if you aren't going to learn as much as you can? How can you even say you love taking photos of whatever it is you love taking photos of if you don't want to improve?

I have no answer. I can only say that I am not a photographer. Just someone with a small camera. I'm content. I apologize for being content and unambitious. I do what I do because it makes me happy. I apologize for being shallow and content and unambitious.

I am sure that the spiders that have been my subjects don't care about the photos I take. And that's all right. Neither do I. At least not in the way that I think I must become the best, the most awesome or the most popular. Sure, I do like some of the photos I have taken but, really, it's the experience that I won't forget. I remember every single encounter, I remember where and when I saw this or that jumper, I remember how it felt to shoot it. I loved that sense of discovery, that burst of excitement.

So I'm wrapping up Jumping Spiders Week with a silly shot that sums up how I feel. I'm just someone with a small camera and I love shooting jumping spiders.

This is a combination of two shots. The texture and blue color come from the wall this little guy was on. The selfie is a severely cropped one taken in the bathroom.

Thank you so much for being patient with me this past week as I shamelessly indulged myself. Words cannot express how grateful I am for your encouragement. This is my 300th shot, I feel I can see the finish line now, I can make it there and I can't wait to complete my project. Thank you for your kindness and support.


LOL! That is how it would have looked that time the jumpy jumped on your camera! If you could have taken a pic of it. I am obsessed too! I feel the same way you describe. I love the "what am I going to find?" when I step out with my camera. You do take very good macro shots. I have come up with a few good ones in my time. But I know what you mean....those TRUE super clear, super detailed macros....they still amaze me! They are like they were taken with a microscope! Some are I think!
September 15th, 2012  
You take such amazing pictures, Livia. I love what you said about how you remember the experience. THAT IS FABULOUS.

Congratulations making it to 300. I still feel like such a newbie.
September 15th, 2012  
I really like what you have created here Livia! After all, how many super macros of spider eyes can a person look at in a life time? But this is art!
September 15th, 2012  
You could say this one was caught on camera! It's a nice one to finish the week with, and I have enjoyed the photos - it has also been an education!
Well done for reaching 300. I know it has been a struggle sometimes. I only hope that, when you finish the project, you will not put the camera away for ever.
September 15th, 2012  
@janturnbull Even if I'm not on 365, I'm likely to keep shooting. Going out to the parks and mangrove forests to find macro subjects, it's really the only exercise I'm getting! XD
September 15th, 2012  
I think your macro shots are perfect. I can't imagine any being any better. Congratulations on your 300th shot! And I love the artsy abstract look with your selfie ;-)
September 15th, 2012  
nice one
September 15th, 2012  
This is so creative and I love seeing your jumping spiders! One must photograph what one is happy to and for oneself! I have no doubt you will get to your goal of 365. I see I have only 34 to go before reaching my 365 and I did wonder many times whether or not I would make it!
September 15th, 2012  
Very clever - I love this shot.
September 15th, 2012  
Bob
Wow, what a shot and a commentary. I agree that one does not have to climb to the top of the mountain to enjoy the journey.
September 15th, 2012  
I think it's STUNNING!! Well done!!
September 15th, 2012  
I thought I had photographic ambitions. Maybe I still do but I'm not prepared to do anything about it at the moment. Or maybe ever. I suspect I'm too dense to understand some of the concepts and therefore I don't even want to try. Add underachiever to unambitious. I'll come back to your narrative whenever I start feeling bad about myself in regards to my photography. You are a smart cookie.
Anyway...I like the underwater feel of this shot and the ring on your finger. Your photos are special because the enjoyment comes thru. @bobhuegel Well summed up.
September 15th, 2012  
@meisen325 The ring is one of my favorite silver rings, of a skeletal hand! You can see it better here: http://365project.org/myautofocuslife/365/2012-08-12
September 15th, 2012  
@myautofocuslife Love both the hand and the skull. Had seen that photo before and now, every time I see bones or skulls in any form I think of you ;)
September 15th, 2012  
Great conceptualization and follow through! And that's photography! :-)
September 15th, 2012  
Cool shot, congrats on the 300, you must always shoot what makes you feel happy as that is why most of us take photos :)
September 15th, 2012  
Such a neat photo.
September 15th, 2012  
@myautofocuslife Wow! Those are like the microscope ones I was talking about! Amazing!! I liked the one with her eggs!
September 15th, 2012  
Macros not good? Get outta here! They're excellent and love the colors you produce.
September 15th, 2012  
oh and congrats on 300!
September 15th, 2012  
Nia
Olivia, I love your work and while I know what you mean about the macros where you can count the hairs it doesn't take away from your work. Your composition and joy in taking these photos is truly amazing and what you accomplish without a big fancy camera/lens/ fancy lighting just adds to that amazement I feel when I see your posts. Keep snapping.
September 15th, 2012  
Dear Livia. Those pic`s are made with an electron microscope and often been photoshop. Often the colors are painted. Don`t compare with it unless you have those tools. Yours are magnificent they way they are now. and , If I `ve a look at all the comments every day I think a lot of people agree with me .


September 15th, 2012  
Liviua you do so put yourslf down. I'd be more than happy to be able to detect let alone capture all those tiny creatures. You have opened up my world enoumously with 'just a little camera'. It isn't the camera that produces amazing captures, it is the person holding it and she like this image is awesome. Fav and congratualations on making 300.
September 15th, 2012  
Livia you are awesome the way you are, your images and passion are magnificent x
September 15th, 2012  
I really like the entire artistry in the shot!
September 15th, 2012  
@espyetta & Livia - The problem with those true macro shots is exactly what Livia mentioned in her second paragraph above. The magic of those spiders is ruined by the artificial lighting. The blogger even zooms in so we can see their hand and the big light reflectors. I don't want to see that (but did also like the eggs!!). I want to see each spider's personality, the way Livia shows us. Congrats on 300.
September 15th, 2012  
Nat
Liv - It's only an obsession if YOU think it gets in the way of your life :) From this side of the screen it doesn't look like a problem. I love the natural way your little arachnid friends look - they smile :)
September 15th, 2012  
Awesome capture Livia, congrats on your 300th shot, and i hope you continue after your year is up, i too love to go through my pics and remember where i was for that shot.
September 15th, 2012  
eva
Spectacular!
September 15th, 2012  
Great writing and I know where you are coming from. I only use a p&s and am very happy using just that.
You may not be able to capture the worlds best macro shots but yours are awesome and way better than anything I could ever hope to achieve.
September 15th, 2012  
Cool
September 16th, 2012  
beautiful shot. im obsessed too when getting moving/non moving subjects.
September 16th, 2012  
This is so clever, fabulous shot!
September 16th, 2012  
Great Shot and I love the edit!!! Fav!!!
September 16th, 2012  
I absolutely love your commentary and share your attitude towards photography. I love capturing what I consider 'beautiful' on camera too but don't care very much about the technical side of things. I just go out snapping and sometimes the shots turn out great and other people love them too and other times the shots are very average. I don't want to go out and buy all kinds of special gear or enroll myself in courses to get better at taking photos. I just want it to stay fun and hopefully along the way I will figure some 'technical' stuff in my own pace. I love your shots because they are honest and really show the passion you feel for the beauty in nature. I really love what you do !
September 16th, 2012  
I love the joy you share with every shot you take. What more could anyone ask?
September 16th, 2012  
I love the mixture of colour and reflection in this shot. I love your work Livia - keep it up.
September 16th, 2012  
I know there are some macro shots that have crazy zoom but I LOVE your shots! I need a special lens to do what you are doing.
September 16th, 2012  
nice :-)
September 16th, 2012  
I love the contrast of the spider against that blue wall. And I like the way you've incorporated your selfie into the composition.
September 16th, 2012  
I think you do a marvelous job Livia and I am always in awe at your skills at taking these kinda shot. Well done on the fantastic series!
September 16th, 2012  
I'm so happy you're obsession with these little guys. This series was such fun to follow and the simplicity and sharpness of of the shots were amazing. Even though I know they were not easy to take. Great job and absolutely love your creativity in this shot!
September 16th, 2012  
You and your arachnids!! Great processing - very interesting photo
September 16th, 2012  
Although I am not a spider/bug photographer, I have truly enjoyed the joy you have for photographing these fellows (and I even fav'd one!). In any art there are those you push themselves to excel and thrive on learning as much and more about the craft. That is how they find joy in their creative expression. But that doesn't mean everyone, or every artist must create in the same way. And since no human is a carbon copy of another, they shouldn't have to. I think you've found the way the works for you- and as I'm reading through these comments, most us seem to be quite pleased with the way you pursue, photograph and share your passion with us. Keep it up! It's a pleasure to see and share.
September 16th, 2012  
This is cool! Congrats on #300!
September 16th, 2012  
Love the processing and selfie, you are the queen of macro/ spider shots and I love seeing them =)
Congrats on 300 as well!!
September 16th, 2012  
Yeah... it might be bordering on obsession... but we love it!!
September 16th, 2012  
it is a great shot! and your macros are FANTASTIC!!!
September 16th, 2012  
Very creative Livia! Yeah your macros are fabulous!
September 16th, 2012  
This is a tremendous piece of art. Impressive and excellent.
September 16th, 2012  
Wow, Livia - it is Sunday here and obviously Sunday with you and you have had 52 wonderful comments! Isn't it a marvellous community! I do agree with @pyrrhula in acutely macro shots! The pleasure of getting the most out of your camera is the best part of this!
September 16th, 2012  
and a FAV from me because I love your reflection in the picture. .
September 16th, 2012  
Very clever selfie
September 16th, 2012  
Very interesting shot!
September 16th, 2012  
Brilliant shot to end jumpy week! Love the processing and end result. Staying true to yourself is the most important thing - and that's what you're doing. Your photos are true to your interests and passions and that's why we love them so much. You don't capture the minutiae of the little spiders - but you capture their personalities which are missing in the very technical pics. I love the cuteness, shyness and brazenness that comes through your pics.
September 16th, 2012  
love how you got your reflection in the shot with the little guy
September 16th, 2012  
Oh, you are too modest. Your macro are great! And love the processing of this photo.
September 16th, 2012  
What a great shot of your idea!!!:)))))
September 16th, 2012  
Enjoyed your jumping spider week. Great edit here too
September 16th, 2012  
Your macro shots are fab! Never apologise for liking what you do. We appreciate you taking the time to share with us.
September 16th, 2012  
Very creative, Livia. I love this.
September 16th, 2012  
That is so cool Livia. Your shot and narrative go perfectly together. The only thing I will say about this shot and your accompnying words is that you are an incredible phtographer who brings her work to life with the accompanying narrative.

Maybe you would be a better photographer if you had all the gear, but I for one say, good for you, stay as you are. You are one of the main reasons why I have shared some of my own personal experiences and feelings as I have got deeper into my project. Your project has given me the encouragement to think that people are interested in what lies behind or alongside the photo.
September 16th, 2012  
You take lovely shots and everyone here thinks highly of your photos - which I might add you shoud be very proud of. I have it the same way but with birds, particular all the parrots we have around. They are pretty in colour and they have such beautiful sounds. Great photo and love your work : ) xxx
September 16th, 2012  
Well done, Livia! I like your shots of spiders and it is a great final point of your series. I must tell you that I am just like you - obsessed... in photography. I specially bought an expensive cam only with this purpose - to gain more freedom in my experiences. Sure it doesn't depend on that stuff you have but on your personal attitude towards your own loving passion for photography. Your story is very touching but I must tell you - go on with your wonderful pics and first of all for your own pleasure and satisfaction just like me and, I think a lot of other amateurs here! And I agree with you that there is a friendly and kind atmoshere here, too. Our best shots are waiting for all of us....
September 16th, 2012  
Your photographs are lovely Livia! and you love doing it so it's win win! It's your project and you can shoot whatever you please and whatever makes you happy. We are all just along for the ride =)
September 16th, 2012  
This combo speaks volumes, great colour, lighting and subjects, so well juxtaposed. I think, there is no need to apologise, if you are content, that's fine, you don't owe anyone an apology. Just be yourself, besides we are loving who you are are what you are doing. And congrats on shot 300 :)
September 16th, 2012  
These little guys are so cute and you do a great job!!! It is your project, you can do what you want!!! :)
September 16th, 2012  
Rob
Another lovely image! Have really enjoyed your jumping spiders. Don't sell yourself short. You take some amazing images that tell a story beautifully! I always look forward to seeing your project! A big congrats on 300!
September 16th, 2012  
I love your spider pics and I'm also crazy about findinf the next bug/dragonfly etc. I hate bringing a pile of lenses flashes etc and taking ages to set up a shot. So not me. I just go into the woods and hope i have enough lighting to see my subject! Congrats on making it to the final leg of your project. I have loved seeing your pics. :)
September 16th, 2012  
Congrats on getting to #300. You spider series has been fun. Keep the creativity coming Livia.
September 16th, 2012  
very clever! i'm happy with my little camera too. it's great to know what you want .... keep going ... ;-)
September 16th, 2012  
I have so much enjoyed jumping spider week - your style is fantastic!
September 16th, 2012  
Incredibly creative Livia!.....Love your style of photography! Fav : )
September 16th, 2012  
Fantastic shot, love that you've included a slightly more daring selfie! Your work brings such joy to all that view it, and that's what it's all about! I love viewing your work and am in awe of your abilities and creativity on a daily basis! I think you were the first person I saw when I was first considering signing up back in December and you blew me away then and continue to do so all the time! Love reading your words too!
September 16th, 2012  
Beautiful, Livia, and a great caption. I am not a photographer either but I love the way a creative routine like taking pictures every day changes my perception of the world around me. It was wonderful to see you discover the beauty of these spiders through your pictures. Congrats on reaching 300!
September 16th, 2012  
cool
September 16th, 2012  
Great processing! Love how you combined two things you love so well.
September 16th, 2012  
Congrats on the 300th, great processing
September 16th, 2012  
I love what you've done with this. Fabulous. Fav xx
September 16th, 2012  
I think its a luxtury to be able to indulge and take photos of what you lie rather than having to placate the crowds and take shots of what you think they will like to see.I love your words.. I am at a place where I dont know what I want to do with my photography. I dont know where i am heading. Right now I have to revise for my approaching exams so I am using fillers and thinking.. I do know that my photography will at some stage change.. change to what I love.. Keep doing what makes yu happy.. because if you changedto suit others you will feel lost xxx
September 16th, 2012  
Very creative & unique 300th celebratory shot, fits you perfectly! Love the way you feel about this project!
September 17th, 2012  
Very cool!
September 17th, 2012  
love your spiders and love that you love what you do.... awesome shot or couple of shots....
September 17th, 2012  
If it wasn't fun or something we all loved we would not have joined 365. I find your spider shots very interesting and I have learned things I never knew. I am only 4 shots behind you in this project and I know what you mean about making it to the end. Keep up the great shots.
September 17th, 2012  
i cannot believe you don't have macro lenses or tubes or whatever else........your shots are amazing anyway, i thought for sure you must have all of the good gear!!! Your very good at what you do and i definately understand what your saying...i feel the same way, i just enjoy the moment:)
September 17th, 2012  
Fantastic shot Livia!
September 17th, 2012  
@trude I do use a Sony 30mm macro lens with my interchangeable lens camera, even though it's not suited for shooting bugs and insects at all, it's more for macro shots of non-living subjects. If I wanted better magnification and better shots, I know I should add extension tubes and artificial lighting (and a tripod). But I don't want to lug heavy equipment around, it would make finding bugs and spiders to photograph a real chore. I salute the photographers who do this, and the amazing photos they get from using the right equipment and learning the right skills. I do love looking at what the pros capture. 8)

September 17th, 2012  
Cool blue and editing! Love it!
September 17th, 2012  
A great, big, obsessive, labor-of-love, from-the-heart "THANK YOU!" to everyone for taking the time to share your thoughts! I know I will stick to doing what makes me happy. Technical perfection isn't on my list of things to accomplish. I want to say I appreciate your support so much, I am grateful that you do understand where I am coming from. There is no other more important reason for doing this project except that I want to, because it makes me happy to. Thank you so much, and I hope I may have the privilege of your company for the rest of my journey.

Again, thank you so much.

September 17th, 2012  
I think that your shots are way better than you think they are! Your spider shots are amazing... you seem to get them just right and with great focus... I take no offence... just wish I could get half of mine as decent as yours!
September 17th, 2012  
Great shot & I feel your addiction it must be feed.
September 17th, 2012  
This is a great shot to represent who you are. And nicely done . Wow ! Fav. I understand how you feel about beeing content. It's like with gardening , I enjoy growing my own tomatoes and cucumber etc. but I'll never get into technical stuf like fertilization and soil PH levels . It is what it is. I want to enjoy it.
September 17th, 2012  
Oh for goodness sake you got me all excited, for a split second there I one had jumped onto your camera! I should of known better! I hope this is not the last we see of your jumping spiders, that would be too sad.
September 17th, 2012  
This is beautiful composition Livia, just saw it, I miss out on people's posts because of timing here: ) This one certainly jumps at you. Congrats on 300!
September 18th, 2012  
Niiiiiice!!!
September 18th, 2012  
Very cool, Livia. Very artistic. ;-)
September 18th, 2012  
Love this and I am sad your week of jumping spiders is over! Fav!
September 18th, 2012  
a work of art, very nice
September 19th, 2012  
Great...
September 20th, 2012  
These are just the pretties spiders and you capture them sooooo well
September 20th, 2012  
I love your pics!!!!! I am fascinated by insects and spiders. My personal obsession is butterflies. :0)
September 20th, 2012  
Incredibly cool shot - a great edit and congrats on making 300!
September 20th, 2012  
Livia, I'm really glad that you always have a story to tell about your fantastic shots or the creatures that are your subjects. The big benefit for me is that you take so much trouble to educate and entertain us by sharing the photos you take for your own pleaseure. Doing what makes you happy makes me happy too :)
p.s. you don't half say sorry a lot for a woman with nothing to apologise for :)
September 20th, 2012  
l am way behind on commenting - just had a look through your jumping spiders ...they are so cool....l am always on the hunt looking for these guys - musn't be looking hard enough ...the few l have found , l only managed blurry shots ....really amazing shots!!
September 20th, 2012  
I love all your jumping spider shots! And I think your macros are pretty damn good as well. I've really been having a blast following you. Thanks you!
September 20th, 2012  
I love your macros - it's the passion that drives your excellence. Also - I relate with the obsession -- I joke with a friend of mine that the shot is "my precious" - if you followed the Lord of the Rings series, you'll know what I mean. ;-) But even if you didn't, I know you know what I mean.
September 21st, 2012  
This is my favorite of your spider shots- really nice work
September 22nd, 2012  
So great. Love the composition and meaning behind this capture.
September 25th, 2012  
Incredible shot!
September 25th, 2012  
Fav! Spectacular shot! Love it! :D
October 26th, 2012  
You and your spiders... fav
December 5th, 2012  
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