I did two and a bit hours filming today. I was sososo anxious yesterday and today but it was like I'd done it yesterday. It all just came back to me 😊
Tonight I'm in tears because food. I'm trying so frickin hard. I have no idea how much I'm eating but I'm doing my best. But I'm dizzy and achey and feel so poorly and then I try and eat and add feeling horribly sick on top of it all then down gaviscon and it only slightly helps. So I end up just feeling sick as well as dizzy and permanently thirsty and achey and eurgh. I'm doing my best but it's so hard when it is literally down to me to make food and eat and not use behaviours. I'm hoping it'll get a bit easier when I move and can have a cat. But yeah it's so hard on top of trying to do my jobs and be a human and remember buy toilet roll and everything. I'm not expecting it to be easy at all, I'm really not, but at the moment it just feels like I can't win whatever I do.
