carpet of colours
leaves fluttering in the wind
land quietly down.
and the wind blows cold
the leaves scatter on the ground
crunched by heavy feet.
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my lovely friends, thank you so much for your kind and encouraging words on yesterday's post. i value your sentiments and they help make me feel positive about pursuing and learning to paint. you are right that i am too hard on myself. i suppose that stems from having to constantly prove myself to my father whose attitude prevented me from doing the things i wanted to do, who never believed in me, although he did see my accomplishments as i grew older. he was one of those people who thought that girls should not go beyond high school, because "she's just going to get married." in our family i had to fight for everything, poverty aside, because he favoured his first-born son and the pretty daughter who came after me. but guess who ended up supporting him until he died.
my doctor did a bit of psychotherapy this morning after consultation about my headaches and tummy troubles whenever i leave my queendom. she opined that i have anxiety problems. like everyone else, i suppose. but talking with her, delving a bit into my past, as always the problem points to my father. she could refer me to a psychiatrist or a psychologist, but i feel no need for that. i know my problem, where it stems from, and knowing or being aware is the important thing. i have 365 and the best moral support i can find here. i also declined the pills she wanted to prescribe for the anxiety. so she recommended yoga and meditation. now apart from watching painting tutorials, i now have to watch yoga and meditation. when do i find time for anything anymore!
I adore this photo!! FAV. Might I suggest some essential oils for anxiety.... Doterra sells a blend called "BALANCE" that I inhale and also use as perfume when feeling anxious and out of sorts. It makes me feels so much better!
@kwind - oh, thank you, kim. i will check that out. i use a lavender oil that i dab at the tip of my nose for sleeping. but i will give doterra a check.
whoa!!!!!!!! those colours!!!!! autumn is so very amazing. just like this photo.
PS: photography and painting can be the only pills you ever need. and a chat with a friend every now and then. you are a wonderful person (based on your stories). i am sure that it does not help you to know that we all are hard on ourselves every now and then. but beside acknowledging the problem, we have to take action, to remedy that. we only live once. in my languagge we have a saying that goes something like: we only have one life and one asshole. ;) keep up the wonderful work and take care of our friend here on 365.
mmm such a wonderful and original treatment of all those shapes and colours. love your haikus also. hope your anxiety will start to fade a little with all the things you're doing to soften it :)
Beautifully done Vikki - both image and haiku. Hang in there my friend. Enjoy your painting and photography. They are both great ways of "being in the moment". Sending big hugs xx
While the Eastern practice of yoga as exercise can be helpful as well as meditation (for me it's meditating on the Scriptures) to relieve stress there is only one way I know that works when dealing with anxiety (Matthew 11:28-30; 1 Peter 5:7). I personally need to know Someone bigger than I can deal with the source of that anxiety. And as far as fathers go, every earthly father has points of failure- some more than others- but when our earthly fathers fall short there is one Father whose opinion counts even more and although we still have to deal with the emotional results of our earthly fathers' failures, reminding ourselves about how the Heavenly feels about us can override those doubts and the lack of self esteem that comes from the earthly shortcomings of our biological dads. A lot of people will quote John 3:16 when speaking of this but actually everything from Gen. 1:1 to the last verse of Revelation is demonstrating God's love for us and the extent to which He will show it. I wish we could sit down and talk (and then go take pictures of course!). But you have some good tools to work with here- your talent, the oils, your friends and I would suggest time in prayer with your Heavenly Father so that He can reassure you of His love. Well, I didn't mean to get too preachy on this but you know I feel it deeply! I will be praying for you and feel free to call me if you want to talk!
A gorgeous image. Glad that anxiety seems to be the root of your physical problems. Hobbies, artistic output especially, physical exercise, meditation, oils, good sleep, good food all will help you. Perhaps you've already tried counseling, but sharing your history and putting it into perspective sometimes takes an uninvolved person's perspective.
Beside this great Fall pic. I like the haikus. Fav.
Just buy me a book with translated Japanes ones.
(I`ve cure by realize that most of my thoughts excist in my mind and often in my mind only.)
Great exhibition of different colors of leaves !
Hope the yoga and meditation will help to solve you anxiety.
Did you try sport ?
A glass of champagne works to ;)
Essential oils of orange and cinnamon got a relaxing effect.
take care ;)
PS: photography and painting can be the only pills you ever need. and a chat with a friend every now and then. you are a wonderful person (based on your stories). i am sure that it does not help you to know that we all are hard on ourselves every now and then. but beside acknowledging the problem, we have to take action, to remedy that. we only live once. in my languagge we have a saying that goes something like: we only have one life and one asshole. ;) keep up the wonderful work and take care of our friend here on 365.
you should tag this for the artist challenge
Cacophony of sound
Beautifully snapped
Hang on in there friend
Things can only get better*
But stay in the warm
*D:Ream earworm shared
I have put below the link
No need to thank me.
XxX
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=UwWfE4DAyao
If you have not heard of Bob Ross I recommend you watch him. He will help with the painting AND the anxiety.
Your photography needs no help as evidenced by this amazing photo. Keep up the good work girlfriend you are excelling in all parts of your life.
While the Eastern practice of yoga as exercise can be helpful as well as meditation (for me it's meditating on the Scriptures) to relieve stress there is only one way I know that works when dealing with anxiety (Matthew 11:28-30; 1 Peter 5:7). I personally need to know Someone bigger than I can deal with the source of that anxiety. And as far as fathers go, every earthly father has points of failure- some more than others- but when our earthly fathers fall short there is one Father whose opinion counts even more and although we still have to deal with the emotional results of our earthly fathers' failures, reminding ourselves about how the Heavenly feels about us can override those doubts and the lack of self esteem that comes from the earthly shortcomings of our biological dads. A lot of people will quote John 3:16 when speaking of this but actually everything from Gen. 1:1 to the last verse of Revelation is demonstrating God's love for us and the extent to which He will show it. I wish we could sit down and talk (and then go take pictures of course!). But you have some good tools to work with here- your talent, the oils, your friends and I would suggest time in prayer with your Heavenly Father so that He can reassure you of His love. Well, I didn't mean to get too preachy on this but you know I feel it deeply! I will be praying for you and feel free to call me if you want to talk!
Just buy me a book with translated Japanes ones.
(I`ve cure by realize that most of my thoughts excist in my mind and often in my mind only.)
Hope the yoga and meditation will help to solve you anxiety.
Did you try sport ?
A glass of champagne works to ;)
Essential oils of orange and cinnamon got a relaxing effect.
take care ;)