attended a book reading, featuring three bestselling canadian authors at the harbourfront tonight. one of the authors is the girlfriend of my friend's son. that's why i'm late and i'm not happy because the happy pills tell me i need to be going to sleep.
there are some memories that are better left alone. i always tell about the time i was working overtime in my first job. a pregnant woman in another office gave birth, and i helped deliver her baby. today, however, for some strange reason, i was telling this story to one of the girls in the office and for the first time, i had recalled what actually transpired at the time, including my taking all the newspapers and lining the office floor with them. when i asked the woman to lay down, her baby was already halfway out. and i had to hold its head and my hands were drenched in blood and the baby was crying with its umbilical cord around its neck and i had to carefully untangle it and then the mother told me to cut off the cord and i remember cutting something with the office scissors and that feel and sound of steel cutting into flesh just got etched in my head and wouldn't go away. it was like a repressed memory and it just flowed out like a lava out of a volcano's crater. and i felt sad after my chat with my officemate; i just felt like going for a long walk, and i did, but it didn't help. i was so depressed i bought a pair of shoes, some nylons, some nail polish and a pink summer dress but not as pink as the tulips. good thing today was payday!
sometimes i feel guilty for taking so much of your time reading by diatribe. i shouldn't, but i do. and i thank you for coming by and/or commenting. i appreciate it a lot!
I love your 'diatribes' - they make my day! Bravo for your birthing effort - you didn't run away as most people might! I've conquered the sleeveface challenge - not easy! Yours is really good now I know!
I too love sharing your diary (not diatribes) How good to have delivered a new life. Hope we get to see the pink dress in glorious chroma sometime. The b & W garden challenge is a stretcher and good for it :O)
